Lesson for today

Don't ever got close with lecturer because it will kill you off one shot..

"Kit Yuan, Don't disappoint me tomorrow" said by Bobby..

lol.. this is enough for me to get damn stress over it..

now itself i keep studying the notes and even text book..

too bad i done badly for my midterm thus leads to a low coursework

which may leads to my 1st grade C for my results..

not really liking it..

sigh, a small mistakes cause my midterm failed..

but again results does not show or prove anything

as long i know whats wrong and make clear about the two different important facts..

3 more papers left and HOLIDAYS.. it will be the longest 1 week for me.

let's enjoy the SUFFERING MOMENTS XD

time flies

Haha, so fast then is another final already..

this could be consider the most unlucky moment for me

as i had fall sick during the study week..

and now i m still coughing, sneezing and sore throat..

this is a COMBO..

restless for so many days and cant really focus for my revision..

i had given myself almost a week break for myself

when others are having their study week, i actually having my own holidays

thought of giving myself some enjoyment and when times come only i do the last push

however, when i back to Kampar i still looks ok but the next day, it kill me off..

straight fall a sick, haha, how am i suppose to do my revision in this situation..

=) but i still try my best, as usual, for me :

study is not about the quantity time you spent but is the quality time you have..

some of them is just stdy for the sake of study

yes, you could spend your whole day looking at books and study and revise just to convince yourself, but how many percent you had absorb and understand for it..

only you yourself know the best.. i m not trying to offence anybody but just my thought of it..

haha.. but i never said that i am top students and i never ever want strive to be the top XD

hahha...

the hols for myself i actually drive a lots compare to usual because gotta attend a prizing ceremony in putajaya.. without realized, i drove around KL and even putrajaya but keep getting LOST with it la.. but getting lost is a good thing because from there you will learnt and in near future u might d know the road well

the prize giving ceremony is a bit disappointing because my team could just amnage get the most dramatic award from the organizers and previously we expected more because the organizer contact my team leader personally.. besides, the winner of the video i dont see any creativity and innovating compare to others video and this is not because i lost only i said that.. therefore, i came out a conclusion.. this is a stupid tournament and cash are pour into this by government but guess again is have corruption therefore the quality and standard of this tournament is low.. and less than expected.

this term again my coursework is lower than i expected guess this semester would be the 1st grade C i get in my examination but i will still try my best to get at least a B- la.. since i had a D which pull me down greatly in my CGPA.. God Bless Me.. haha

during this short break i got a chance to meet with Ivan...

after so long and have a great yamcha section

talk about most of our stuffs and the football team we love XD

Euro Trip and Anfield match hopefully would be a real thing for me before i turned 25

hopefully it is not a dream in future.. counting on it.. XD

Lonely Road

It is two months after Chien left..

my yamcha section is really OVER and OFF for 1 year

the emptiness in Subang..,, sigh

Guess the only one back there is my girlfriend..

Argh.. felt so lonely and no friend can have a heart to heart talk with me anymore..

where is my good listener and Ivan G.. XD

guess everyone else is busy with their life now..

the day we left high school.. all took different path..

and Yea.. no more in contact.. and no topics in common anymore..

Summer could you come back now.. i would like to meet my friends back

though they r just a normal friends but at least can have fun together..

Damn.. i m rotting in Kampar..

and my frens who had wif me for one year and two semester got terminated and left the uni..

so, my academic world left one person and he is one semester behind me..

my graduation would not be as good as others.. but life goes on..

just make it fast and in time so my parents could really retired..

now i really miss home, the two old folks..

hope they are fine... haha, all my siblings are out station..

so, next week i going backk gonna see both of u soon

=) i m not the best child and i come back gives lots trouble to u

but i still wanna back home hahah..

wonder when will this happen

Sigh,just saw somebody comment " that Bastard" again with no regret over what he had done, this i refer back to the one who fight with my another fren.. from the comment i see not a sense of regret and even guilt in him.. dammit.. it has been so long since the 1st time i know him i really hope something happen to him and he could learn before everything is too late for a changes..

to this point, some might think that again i am judging people and i might not have the right to talk about people but just %^&* it..

One who never know what is happening around him

One who always thought he is right

One who will never listen to people

One whose words louder than action

One who will never learnt

One who don't have guilt or sorrow with what he had done

THIS IS DAMN PATHETIC

mark my words, one day and it will really come and at that point

u will regret for everything you had done.. and u will still blame on others

forever you will stand at the same point in life without moving forward

so it is up you... and this really SERVED YOU :D

erm, next, today i realized lots people are really take things for granted

especially university students, i might be one of them la.. =)

just keep blaming parents for forcing you study things you don't like

i know this is chinese culture and tradition whereby they restrict you doing things you like

i know it is ur interest and you feel that you could do it and make it

but somehow in reality, things u interested u might not be succeed on it as well

because this is the fact and I HAD FALL ONCE by assuming I CAN MAKE IT..

but things really don't turn out as we want..

now you just keep blaming parents and have you ever look at yourself

what problems and mistakes you done?

Did you really study well and well prepare for each final?

Did you really try your best?

Did you do revision every night and even consult tutors on it?

Did you take it seriously?

All i know is not enough efforts, lack of concentration, hard work and keep going back hometown even during final and etc are the problems,

i see no reasons for you to fail just that u had failed yourself and you are responsible for it.

But you don't see things that way.. you will just point finger at others..

You should feel glad with what you have because you don;t go through process others went..

if u taken others path and born in a different environment guess you are a drop out student long time ago..

appreciate things and focus now.. after graduate only think of your dream..

now is not the time yet..

Inappropriate

just one month and many things happen..

1st is a totally unexpected stuffs happen whereby my house mates and my fren got into fist fight in ipoh.. this is bullshit man.. fight in public, no 1 was drunk and we are having snowflake in 100 yen.

both of them just cant hold themselves and BANG... fight..

both party also got wrong but this happen is because of one's sickening attitude.. guess if i was in that situation i also will punch him hard and nice.. we are being too patient and compromise with this fellow.. i really dont know what to say.. but this fellow is the one making my life uneasy and making me angry all the time..

now i am handling a club, so this guy would say everything in the world and yet nothing you can get from him.. mean he will just do the talking and no action.. just bullshit and even tell otehr clubs about my problems.. showing sign of disrespect... handle tasks to him will give a answer very hard and dont know how to do.. had work together with him once and guess i will say NO MORE.. so, no matter what happen, i will handle all by my own to avoid unnecessary stuffs and since he is selfish dont think he will enrolled himself in anything.. so, just screw yourself.. i can't be bother.. and keep giving me negative response, cannot la.. cannot la.. they wont do.. fuck la.. i m trying be optimistic and u trying to pull me down.. ask u do.. u say cant then duo duo lan ye..

dickhead

next, 100% disappointed with my board of committees whereby they do not want to sacrifice anything.. ask them do this and that.. their face gave me answer.. if u were unwilling to sacrifice, out the door and go.. dont waste my time and the position i could give to other people... sickening and need me to do this and that... when u guys gonna change and be more motivated to do stuffs on ur own rather than i keep pushing it.. really hope this day will come..

exam is just 3 weeks away, guess i really screw up my midterms and assignment.. every semester assignment really give me headache and making me dulan.. this semester, yea a galz.. in fact a bitch and a bastard same group with me.. doing assignment using copy and paste, ask them change and change.. telling me is facts can't change.. ask them elaborate and independent thoughts they give me same thing again.. dunno i m speaking tamil or alien language to them until they do not know what i want... i ended up give up that assignment really sickenning when looks at their work.. no quality at all.. sigh...

My life...

really could not recall when i wrote the last posts here..

too many things happen since then

1st got my final finished with no confidence but thx God it turned out fine

but this semester looks a bit different where Japanese language is killing me..

and a quiz is coming up real soon where i really could not find time to do revision and start memorize those shits.. it is a terrified experience.. u r just like back into kindergarten and start learn from the most basic A to Z.. craps man..

haha, this semester is the lonely semester, frens all left to Uk and etc..

others are too busy to hanging out with me..

so, i spend more time with parents and help them out in the shop..

haha.. never thought that i could really rejected going out with frens and help my dad up in shop..

guess now i am mature enough compare to last time... consider a self achievement..

haha, 1st time in kampar i am so busy and don't even have extra time to online till late night or face computer like the past..

2 events held at once with different society.. this is really a test for myself..

time management is really important, till now still consider okey but don't think so for the two coming days.. it is gonna be a 14 days for me to woke up before 8 am and start my routine..

damn.. however, this semester got a free seminar organized by the Utar's soft skills department and attended by every chairman of societies. my first thought would be THIS GONNA BE SUCK, talks and talks, bored and BORED.. so take along my earphone so just in case could sleep at that time.. However, this two ddays seminar is like the most joyful moments i had so far in kampar..

whereby took 1 day for us to get real close and the next day we are like close frens and living in our own fantasy and the world only got us inside.. every moments we passed are full with meaning and simple activities with vital lessons for us to learn.. the feeling is just awesome..

just hope the seminar will go on and the same 22 of us sitting together and do things together..

this could be a dream but is not impossible because a mega event took place then we will gonna get ourselves involve.. waiting the day to come and action would make in happen XD

after the seminar, i turned to a bit down because back to reality.. and so much things for me to worried....

1st my phone bill reached 220 bucks.. Fuck Crying out loud.. LOLz

2nd Halloween game test failed..

3rd Sun burn when carried out car wash and feedback aint that good

4th my birthday turn to be a working day for me by working part time, haihz.. bad memory for me.. but, just gonna deal with it... and maybe can celebrate the following weeks because gt extra holidays.

Most importantly is my GF started to felt lonely because i really dont have time for her..

my timetable is really packed and nap isn't taken place for this two weeks.. dont really know i would survive.. sleep time is just not enough and must wake up because of the word responsibility.. damn.. haha.. but i choose this path so guess i cant complaine about it..

just hope i wontscrew up my academic

should i say FML???

oh my god, i m totally screwed up..

for one week i barely can focus on my revision

exam is just two days away

n yet.. my brain still empty..

today.. cant even stdy for 1 hour..

don't knw why..

thx to the weather make me sleep whole day

thx to lecturersfor noit gving tips therefore no motivation

thx to facebook, even though ntg to do, i still look at u.

thx to myself for gving myself longest break of all time

thx to music accompany all day long

soon will study.. soon.. don't ask me how soon.. just soon..

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

rather write blog than study.. how great man..

hate study for past,now n ever!!!!!!!!!

If..

If you are going to come back..

and we happen to meet again

hope this time we can really put things behind us

and have a good conversation rather than picking on each other

it is 6 years from now and yet the issues are still fresh in mind & hearts

then the friendship will just got worse and worst in future

If really could not let it go or put it down

then it is up to you, i will apologize for the mistakes i done

i m childish over it and immature but if i given a chance again

guess i wont repeat the mistakes or actions but.. it is too late..

so, everything is up to you..

sometimes i do disagree with your point of view because it is very subjective

and no one is perfect so guess that our personality are damn different

however, i would like to keep this friendship as it had d lasted for 14 years

so.. just pray things go smooth and all the best to u n me..

Looking forward for THE DAY.. if happen

Special day off

kind of happy because manage to go back hometown than usual

so many special occasion, haha, the feeling is great

though there isn't any frens there but thats the place i born

driving around there FEEL damn HOME =)

today, dad fetch my sis bck to hometown and on the way pick me up

mom was complaining that it is troublesome to pick me up and of course

about exam also.. however, dad insists to take me along

wahhaa, so i can go back...

sis n dad go for dentist to pull out their tooth, sis wisdom tooth gt 4 roots

haha, lucky the root never break half insd else she will be crying over it

while they inside the surgery room i took car keys and drive around

1st place is to buy GUANG PIN .. some local produced food for my housemates

2nd drove to LUMUT and pray in the same temple i went for the past 20 years

3rd went to McD looking for GCB, ended up saw the sticker*temporarily unavailable* Dammit, then decided to buy porridge for dad and sis, since they unable to bite later after surgery XD

receipt thrown away because if dad know the price of it is RM4.40 he will kill me

just knew that my grandmom's bro passed away, so gotta attend the funeral as well

looking at the coffin, i was so afraid.. flashing back the past memory 2004 and 1994

when my grandfathers died. I dare not stay at there too long as my tears will running down

anytime.. sigh.. always wondering why human will get old and die

why this cycle exists in the 1st place, losing our close relatives and created sad atmosphere..

looking at my aging grandmom, just wanted her TO LIVE up to 100 year old and even longer

end of this year is my cousin's wedding, i going bck to Johor Bharu..

HAHA, again, my kindergarten memories and standard 1 memories

oh.. god.. so happy to return that after 11 years.. lots things change

and doubt my standard 1 fren will still recognize me, had lost contact like 4ever

but, this time back Johor i guess i will turn emotional when see bck the old house..

damn, now think of it things happen at 4,5,6,7 year old is like yesterday

can't deny memories is most wonderful thing on earth

it makes life more interesting but maybe it just happen to certain people

some just don't gv a damn about it

but for me, it is everything i got

no matter bitter or sweet, i will try captured as many memories as i can

because you only live once, you don't get a second chance if u missed it

so, take actions and make memories and keep it..

before regret.. =) after final exam, back to subang i will find back photos in johor

and refresh the old memories..

gotta admit i got affected by emotion easily..

just like the 1st time driving past my Pj primary school after 6 years..

can feel the heart pumped damn fast and sadness strike me

just missed the past... the old times..

going back setapak, drove on Genting Klang road and visit the X-hostel..

omg.. the feeling also very special..

there is so much more...

Emo

just less than a week then is my final exam d..

came bck from Kl 1 and half week in advance to prepare

too bad, again things do not turn out to be what i want

failed to do a quality revision whereby no matter hw many times i read the notes

nothing enter my mind. brain just not functioning

maybe still early and still unsettle for study..

however, every time i look at the notes, it make me pissed off

study 101 things and just 4 things come out..

haihz, examination always like that.. useless Shitz

great thing about this semester is i dislike all my lecturers and tutors

it become worst when final they don't even give tips

so gonna read all those shitz and memorize it

it is damn lifeless

all i can do is complain and complain..

ZZZZZzzzzzz

is gonna be a long three weeks for me and hope i could make it

really don't understand, u r a fucking adults now

and what u do is fucking immature.. because of relationship

u r making urself suffered and even admit to hospital

not to mention about academic already like shitz

posting things, talking wif galz just to get sympathy?

these sympathy make u feel better?

come on, think man, weight what is important in life

every semester with same fucking problems

why don't just fuck it and live on

thats the best....

some assholes just don't know how to behave or even act like a human

no sense of understanding and just thinking for your own

you can just dig a hole and sleep inside and DIE

no one will feel sad for you

your existence is just a waste of resources

so, save the earth, GO DIE!

attitude which will never change for entire life

i am really sick of it and felt like punching you in the face DAMn HARD

Sigh

all my coursework marks just released..

damn, got worst marks compared to previous semester..

lesson of this semester is never trust unknown group members

don't relay on them, it will get yourself killed...

final exam will be pain in the ass, wonder how to get good results..

this two weeks really killed me

doing a video for competition from noon 12 till next morning 7am still can't finish

never been that crazy before in doing task..

haha, was enjoying the process when shooting the video

is a new experience for me and look at my dumb skills in acting

no talents at all =(

still wonder is there any ways to convince my parents to allow me to have a motor license

need it badly in kampar because bicycle cannot really used at night or go to another taman

soon going to have many meetings and without own transport i gonna DIE

always depend on my house mates and friends will just caused them more trouble..

haha, just told my mom my hp gt prob

1st she said, come back subang only see how

when i back, she say no money for me to buy new hp

as all money poured into house renovation

Damn... having hard time typing SMS

wanted a touch screen and Wi-fi hp.. guess will never get it anytime soon

however, i just felt my house is very nice compared to last time

moment i see my house when i just back from kampar

just can put a smile XD at last is done after 3 months

parents are happy over it as we have no money to buy a bigger house

so renovate is the option left for us

now just hope graduate as soon as possible and ask both of them stay home and rest

not need wake so early and work like cow in shops.. 31st august 2010

mean they had opened shop in subang for 14 years not to include those years in Johor

haha, hope when reached 16 years, can put a full stop for them and enjoyed life

this is the things come to my mind every time i step in the shop

don't know why, last week i back and help in shop can see how happy is my parents

they do not show it but i know really well... last time in high school i really never think of it

just mind my own business and ignored them but now i think on their behalf

people do changed i believe.. just hope the few hours really helped them

haha, izit real when you plan something and it meant to failed?

wanted to celebrate a fren birthday in advance ended up failed

damn, tried my best but ended with nothing

guess i am really a bad planner

liverpool u bastard why keep letting me down,

seeing your results and performance keep dropping

come on.. last year already disappointed

this year do something make me proud and happy..

Grrrr......

P&C is killing me

recently got involve in organizing event

that is totally crap, so many things are Private & Confidential

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P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C.P&C. P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C. P&C

'P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C.P&C. P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C. P&C

almost everything discuss is P&C

don't let anyone know unless the proposal is done and approve by DSA

so, basically every meeting he remind us of P&C

afraid of people knowing or stealing ideas

actually society in my university already move on the wrong path whereby they compete between each other and see who will be the greatest

does position and fame that important to you

showing off and etc making you feel better

proud of yourself?

just want to be leader at all costs

ego will pull you down and it is just matters of time

tomorrow will be my first exco meeting and conducted by me..

so, what is P&C and what is not..

i really don't know...

just hope it goes well

there it goes again

Erm, this month and the coming month will be a bad month because again friends are all leaving again to continue their studies.

haha, yesterday one of my junior called me, told me 10 more minutes he is going on plane and say goodbye to me.. can hear his voice that he is going to cry soon =)

next would be my high school friends and primary friends..

argh, could not even think about what will happen to me.

the emptiness in Subang and semester break without them

whenever it cross my mind, the mood just swing and start to be emotional

sigh..

New Chapter BEGIN

great, i just bring my life into the next level whereby i join a society and become the Chairman of Marketing Society. the process can say simple and easy but there are few questions which hard for me to answer. anyway, that is a good experience..

really thankful for the support especially NGAI WEILING, KWAIPEK and their friends..

without them i don't think i can take that post as well..

yea, can slowly feel that burden, wonder if i really can do it and without failing myself and them..

lets see how it turns

not really wanna c myself failed, and yeah, i turn myself into this and needs lots of commitment d..

so BRAIN, could you give me some ideas on my events for the whole year.. XD

now taking the chairman position, things might change slowly and hopefully the past ain't bothering me anymore, and involve in HALLOWEEN NIGHT event as well.. but i juz the commitee members so have to see what can i learn and whether it helps in future or nt =)

next week going to have so many meetings n yamcha section, so i knw the club better and the paperwork thats are necessary for each events which i organized...haha.. juz realized my surrounding are packed wif experienced people and chairman.. i m juz a starter.. so hope i could really beat them and be so much better than them..

as usual, if u r in something, make sure u r the best.. =)

bt that is not applicable for stdy =)

stdy just stdy all u can =)

Satisfied

i seriously can't believe i addicted to Online Game..

Atlantica Online, haha, but maybe it is just short term, but who knows

with everyone in my house crazy over Maple Story and i alone playing AO online

lets see how =)

but Dota still a necessity for me though just a moderate player but who give a damn

just have a feel of basketball back few days,

damn the feeling is awesome

when in high school, i can't live without basketball

but when comes to university, just stop playing and start coaching

and come to Kampar, stop coaching and playing

coaching because Kampar don't have schools need a coach and i ain't popular

playing mainly because of the weight gained

looking back last time pics, i seriously gonna admit how much i gain..

25kg for 4 years craps..

with added weight, running and jumping become a tiring actions for me

that why i stop playing since could not perform as expected(ordinary player)

eating extra calories and fats granted me 6 layers of fats and with no neck =)

haha, just hope from this week onwards, every wednesday night could play basketball

back to study, having two midterms, later and tomorrow

kind hates when you memorize 101 things and just 5 comes out

so, basically, it is just unfair.. but too bad, it the system

just now was studying a text book about operation management

dunno why, it is kind interesting

theories and facts make me wanna know more, but comes to calculation

there goes my nightmare, and this test more on calculation DAMN

but i know i really happy with stuffs i study now..

marketing.. erm, i love it and engineering i hope last time could done better

but LIFE and REALITY is always painful,

can't study engineering is because laziness and bad fundamental

and i can't turn back but just keep move forward

so, hoping for good things happen and it had passed

just could end 2008-2009 with a sigh

time will tells

haha, gotta admit how real is this phrase..

*TIME WILL TELLS*

as time passed, you will know more about them

knowing the positive stuffs is a good sign,

however if it is negative stuffs, he or she will become only more annoying

attitudes always a problem

arrogant always a sickening moment

there are so much more

human are full with different types of attitudes and behaviors which most are not pleased

and i hate when is happening to me..

i would start dislike or even ignore them

i would say no one is perfect maybe sometimes i might be that person to you

however you could control it and try put down some ego and just listen

with excuses you trying to made

with reasons which not so real or even fake

with a stupid ideology

come on, get a life

this is driving me crazy.. argh..

Unexpected visitors

yea, now i having a dog in my hostel, dunno which bastards throw it to my house, this is a male dog, types dunno what but is like shitzhu mix wif beijing dog, basically i don't know what the hell izit also. Don't know i should consider my house lucky or unlucky, first, we try get the dog's owner, but ended we failed and maybe the dog's owner never try look for the missing dog again..

sigh, this dog is really sucking my $$, already paid RM30 for it after divided among housemates..

and NOW here comes the disaster, shit all over, and pees all over... damn, worst of all, the floor become kind of geli and the air full with dog smell.. i live on ground floor, so basically once i open my door, then STRIKE... my nose... ARgh.. disgusting... i had clean its shit and pees 4 times d...

time to get a pair of slipper for indoor and suggesting putting the dog outside to save trouble.. it is also unhygienic when we need to eat in the living room itself.. craps.. i prefer ciplak dog, can watch door and big size don't have to treat it like master..

Best solution ---> "sell the dog" get back the $$

or

keep it outside, save ourselves

Unacceptable

why would you give me those types of attitude, come on, have any problems with it just come straight to me and thinks ways to figure out, don;t give me those fucking looks and stares...

i always do trying to help you guys not to say i am generous but just wanna help, but if you all don't put in more efforts and everything is depends on me, i would feel stress and ended up being emotional and etc, don't blame me on that.. is everyone responsibilities in doing assignments or even works together..

lecturer, screwed you!! you are giving aways marks too easy for class participation.. those bastards give wrong answers you still give them marks?? even those which are not rational??

when a lecturer ask a question,

a guy hands up, "sir, i dunno the ans" there it goes,1 mark for him

come on, what the hell is this?

and what do surprise me is we had a group task on How would you deal when you met Bootlicker in workplace...

those genius give answer of BEING ANOTHER BOOTLICKER whereby satisfied their needs and wants.. OH MY GOD... can't even interpret the question properly.. and now i stuck with having 1 marks because lazy to hands up and compete with those idiots

you can think everything you want and say everything you want, but bear in mind who the person you talking with... being too proud on yourself will never works and fall the next moment without realizing it.. so, you choose the person you gonna become and the life you have.. when you thought you had everything, but the end you actually have nothing, so, at the end of the day, you will be sitting there and start thinking, what do i have and where are those people who i had..

can people just stop doing things for the sake of doing and start doing for the sake of other purposes which will give you better values, people might have different perceptions on value but i guess something which would help you in future would value most than other stuffs

i still don't agree on GOOD GRADES = GOOD FUTURE, and in every fields ONE will be Success with their EFFORTS, SKILLS, TALENT, GK and COMMUNICATIONS... why judge people with what fields they in or even they results, again does academic results really tell you a success of a person, i don't deny study is important, but as long they are doing their responsibility without fail to graduate YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO JUDGE OR EVEN LOOK DOWN AT THEM, 1st who the hell are you, so even if you are teacher and you from that field these don't give you rights to say about me or others,if you are so great you won't be a teacher and use your EKONOMI ASAS to be success in the society, and ask your students don't have to study for that subjects anymore, because this is a subject which don't require revision and etc.. everything is BULLSHIT from you, all you know is comment like an idiots..

one thing i learn from today talks is that

when UTAR students are all complaining about the facilities, lecturers, services and etc,

one thing that you must always remember is UTAR is serving the community, and its really help your parents save lots of money and reduce the burden because your fees are cheaper compares to the others, think behalf of your parents.... if you could not weight it then you better withdraw and go a better place whereas your parents could pay else just stick with it......

Unhappy

sigh, a moment ago just have a slight hope and in a glance, the hope is gone..

having problems with factory visits, just got Yakult in hand , ended up taken by others...

being rejected by 4 companies...

Multi national company why are you so action, don't bother about students' request

Don't you know that you need them in the future to keep your organization running..

Grrrr.. hopefully tomorrow i can get a good feedback from the company else i seriously in deep shits..

At last England manage to qualify for last 16 for World Cup, however next match against Germany, how unlucky is that, but hopefully Gerrard could leads well and Rooney please ON-FORM.. XD

lets see, now i have 7 written assignment and 1 oral presentation

haha, this is really a uni students life, soon gonna have no space to breathe d,

lets enjoy first before suffering, this is what basically the lazy people do..

Never stop...

why do people always find so hard to stay focus on something,

maybe should not use people but me...

haha, should end with a sigh.. just spent my weekend doing nothing

although so much works are on the list but i decided to lye down to day dream, watch drama and listen song.. don't know whats wrong with me but maybe is because the fear in me, dare not look at those tasks which awaits me to accomplish..

therefore, just rotten and wasting time there..

so, yea, week 4 d, there goes all my assignments and midterms should start at a glance,

come on, brain, please work and let me start attacking those tasks.. rather last minutes..

last week just went MOS, first reason is because my frens are back, secondly is my frens birthday,

enjoyment are short and now back to suffer..

1st study

2nd money

3rd too stupid

just hope right now i have a good speaker and BLAST THE MUSIC DAMN LOUD

at least it could inspire me to do something..

Headache

argh, a week off seriously got me kill..

lots of unsettle stuffs and etc.. feel like so far behind... damn

struggling to catch

frens cant updates me on what happen in class because they also didn't attend either..

today attend one tutorial which makes me feel so fucking stupid without knowing answer for a single question, then the kind tutor brain fuck us again.. by saying how the 20% failed that subjects and etc.. one thing i do realized is that the reading materials provided ain't enough for answering questions, and not only one subject, but every of it i am facing the same problems, God please don't tell me i have to go through the text book.. that will be my last choice..

here it goes, the typical CHINESE are back in town...

you could never imagine how desperate are them to get MARKS..

because of the assessment consists of class participation,

the students keep raising hands to answer questions...

looks extremely desperate, you might not believe when u saw the situation..

i just remain silence... feeling SICK of them..

not to say anything,

but if you don't know anything just don't talk

or

if u so gonna talk, plz phrase your sentence properly, don't give shits

suffering for the 2 hours.. HUMAN.. please grow, don't look so desperate

finding hard to accomplish few assignment without transport especially when going to visit multi national company.. wonder if my frens could lend me their cars.. but the answer most probably is a NO.. guess have to figure a way to solve it... now still now ideas yet and not even know those company will allows us in and spend their VALUABLE by explaining the manufacturing process for us.. still UNKNOWN... but soon going get it figure out..

just hope this semester everything will go well, i don't want to ruin anything..

self declared- one week off

new semester just started and on week 2 i already declared a one week off for myself,

so basically, i have 10 days off.. LOL... the main reasons is actually my eldest sister getting engage or something like that la, all i know is they are now legally husband and wife just haven done the wedding ceremony as they need to save $ for that because it is not cheap by the way..

so, SIS, CONGRATULATION!!!!!!!!! more great news, our house got extra one space already( na just joking)

dad taken 2 days off, 1st is the day whereas they register in some government office, then later had lunch in a vegetarian restaurant caused RM300 then up to genting, guess no luck with me, lost my RM100.. Damn... no extra pocket money already..

2nd day we just went shopping and after so long, we had KFC together.. haha, why is eating kfc is like a great event, it is because i can't even recall the last time my family and i having KFC together.. since the big ones are working, my elder sis and i were studying, basically we have no time sitting down together with both parents because their still have a shop to look after..

had my 1st time watching movie with jw and yc.. haha, after forcing them to come, that day is wonderful as everything went smoothly except (1) the service of KENNY ROGERS again(terrible).. i still don't give up on trying KENNY ROGERS in different location... yc and i were persua jw to like KENNY ROGERS but just so happen we FAILED> she still prefer Nando... (2) Old town white coffee Wi-Fi connection, yc house is out of connection and after order drinks and etc only realise the line there is down as well ( bad day for her)

A- team is a great show where i watched with my gf, and again we had KENNY ROGERS..

at last i found the most satisfying KENNY ROGERS!! HAHHA

Naive??

recently there is some people creating a group and call themselves empower, out of curiosity i went and have a look.. it is just a group who trying to demolish or proved that if you supporting them, they will help the students better than the SRC do... they have their objectives and ideology in their page.. mentioning if they were THEM, how they would fight and aids the students.. but, if you see carefully and analyze they are just bunch of people who is so NAIVE.. thought by protesting and etc could solve the problems, they said that students will see HOW THEY SOLVE the existing problems.. but it is just too bad as whoever also can talk as long you know how to twist and etc..

it seem the creator of group is just another talk cock person..

solving problems?? you can kiss my ass then i will trust you

you people are those who want to be famous thats all, setting up groups and etc..

want to be well-known??

if you really do think of helping students, setting up group and talking bad about SRC is unnecessary...

as long you could PROVED with your action, i guess the SRC representatives will step down and let you be it already..

and i was kind surprised with idiots joining their group, they believed in fairy tales?? craps..

people don't require a position or status to help or speak out

you could get the students trust or faith through your action

but if you can't mean you just another bullshit assholes..

LOL...

Mixed emotion

haha, woke up 6 am thought of jogging, ended up with walking and cycling,

*self-convince it is a good start! lol..

today don't have classes, so went Ipoh with few frens..

watch Prince of Persia again.. ZZzz the 2nd time d..

haha, dunno today have the feeling of buying books "Rich Dad,Poor Dad" which recommend by Mr.Wong 3 years ago, so today i gonna buy it.. going few book store to locate it, at last got it, hope i really gain knowledge from this book, so i don't waste my $$.. this book has chinese version as well, at that time i was thinking which to buy.. but at last bought the english version because it is origin in english... hope i will finish the book la =)

argh, money money, always a prob for me, dunno where i spend and how i spend =) it is just never enough..

Bastard hp with so much prob, it just 2 years old and yet it is like 30% die d, dare not ask parents buy a hp for me, as in now their financial also not that good... SIGH... CSL should i buy u for price of RM70?? haha, lets see how things go..

VALUE???? dammit, thought having a great lunch in kenny rogers but ended with disappointment and anger.. NO CLASS SERVICES and served me cold chicken with some layu side dishes.. screw them man, waste my $$ for food like that.. IPOH PARADE's Kenny Rogers SUCK..

end of months full wif bill... 2 streamyx line each 2Mb.. Gas...electrics.. and open house costs which gonna held tomorrow.. ARGH..... today spent RM190......

wallet once empty again.....

I m Back =)

after so many months, nearly forget that i used to express things in here

alright, now currently i glad that i had finished my 1st year in business which could consider a great achievement because i failed do that last year, and yes, 2 more years and i m done, hopefully everything goes well... =)

when i know my frens all are coming bck frm overseas i m so happy, but then once again i m down when heard my another fren is leaving, so basically from end of this year onwards, i going bck subang will lack of something, a kaki to yamcha with me, but this is good for her so i wish her all the best and she will defiantly coming bck with the square hat =) WOOWOWWOwo......

spent my last holidays with my coursemates + housemates, a great trip but pain in $$$$

but however still enjoy it very much though i missed few occasion due to saving costs but with no regret because i do enjoy doing things in my ways..

time just flies, meeting back my coach working part time for him, memories are back.. missed my coaching life, haha.. i m complaining again.. one Saturday i went to basketball court because knowing that my X players having competition, all of them still showing respect to me and address me the proper way this really make me miss them a lots not to mention another school which coach by me in PJ.. these boys are really nice, hope they really moving forwards to their aim and be successful in academic as well..

things which i failed to do during the holidays is never find my X housemates which located in setapak, damn, i missed them, but some of them are graduated and even moved out only left few off them, they giving me an unforgettable experience, the 1 year really meant a lot to me and had left a great impacts to my life... hope to see u guys soon..

on the other hand, i missed the chance to find dai ga jie, dai lou and soo, they are busy with their things so i hope can catch up with them soon, these are my foundation gang which always help me and showing me the value of frens... XD

Disappointment

just screw two midterms badly..

normally when i screw up something i am not so stressful

but now i am.. why i am turning to be like this.

and finally i realized the effects of CARELESS..

one moment i was laughing how easy was the paper

then walk out and discuss with frens..

Zzzzzzzzz... next thing i know, careless mistakes lead me to the graveyard.

another paper is make to fail me as well

headache and feels like giving up

hate this life man, feel so dumb and slow..

the day after tomorrow will gonna have another test, then next day test again.

wonderful, it just not gonna stop, not even need mention the assignment due just aroundd the corner..

haha... what a life man..

now, chinese new year is OVER>.

get back now... the lost soulzz...

time to awake.. lots work waiting for you to complete..

parents will never understand my feelings,

they just say i am not working hard enough

but sometimes when i really work hard i ended with nothing

staying at library to find a good reference book, ended with nothing

rubbish lecturers and tutors teaching me shitz....

exam answer shitz then i DIE..

i have disappoint you all, but i hoping for an improvement

hoping something could really save me

so, should i keep my hope alive to walk on..

lets see whats gonna happen for tuesday and wednesday

for now trying put a =)

GOING MAD

Argh...

time is running up, yeah, i m still doing nothing about it

disappointing semester, expecting a better lecturers and tutors

but it is just not happening, got the worst among all

seriously academic base lecturers are suck, i prefer those from corporate world

sigh.. brain isn't functioning well...

maybe due to chinese new year and the environment.

wonder how am i gonna perform at tomorrow midterms.

tonight will do the last push and see whats gonna happen.

after this gonna rush for 2 assignment 2 midterms and 1 competition,

hope could done it asap and have some space for me to enjoy before continue other midterms.

think before you say anything

getting sick with what u all say,

when i say i don't know mean i REALLY DON'T KNOW

all these while, i was just trying my best for everything

there are luck and etc with me

i am not as good as you think

or even as smart as others.

just an ordinary person who always dagei and do revision when necessary

that is me, believe it or not is up to you

a break

at last, i try to give myself a break...

can't really handle the stress.. so i went cyber and dota for 4 round..

so lucky to won all, and all thanks to my teammates

today the class in university are terrible, cant wait to get it over,

the weather is totally a disaster, can't stop sweating.

Oh my god.. where is Rain God.. Wind God..

i need YOU.. to make here colder..

really dare not look at the calender, because next week onwards are packed wif class replacement, midterms and assignment due.. when think of those, it really make myself no mood, for now just try focus and handle one after another..

again.. YOU please give me strength

brain.. please start working, no time to be wasted

enjoy later.. MAY is the time but not now..

haha

any1 can help me

now i stuck in academics stuffs..

dunno who can i look out for..

finding lecturer isn't the right way since i really kosong wif that subjects

about assignment... i really need helps

but who are there for me.

sigh.. sigh..

hope within this two days i could get the clue of doing

and..

realized, in order to survive in this world, don't depend on others

they only drag you down or you just wasting your time for them

i had wait once for their help, end of the day, i fall the worst

the past taught me... reality is painful

but is my stupidity which lead me to ask for help

so, just blame myself

let me breathe

once reach kampar

assignments, midterms, competition is killing my brain cells.

stressed.... just know i have two midterms in this saturday,

nxt week 2 midterm and 2 assignment due and 1 competition due

fantastic man.. my life..

dunoe could do well in exam o nt.. brain is empty

and i keep asking myself, am my brain still working

after liquor n beer n wines...

brain.. can u hear me ..

haha

shitz, need start working now..

11 days of break

very fast CNY come to an end..

yea, back to kampar after say goodbye to few frens who leaving Malaysia

one gonna c again during June

another will be end of this year

i am all alone again in kampar

bck together wif uni mates

1st time i accompany my gf get her results, and well done

she manage continue 3rd year, and SHE WILL GRADUATE THIS YEAR

this break kind of short as i unable to meet all my frens but only some of them

will try arange to see them in MAY the nxt time i bck subang

this year most of my fren graduating, yet i am still here studying

dunno this is good or bad, however i will try not to delay anymore

not much time left, now is a toughest semester

the final sem which determine my status

can i manage pass the 1st year of degree since i failed to done it before

=)

kind of sad when leaving subang because will gonna miss all my frens

damn... just hope the time will stop at that moment

yes, everyone have to move on, but i just hope could sty longer

met my X players during their training section,

their MSSD just in two weeks time

i still left a great impact in them

just dunno the good one or bad one

but 1 things they still respect me

hope they gonna do well this year, all the best

they made me miss the coaching life and this morning having breakfast with andrew

OMG, i miss basketball, i miss the old me

the time i playing baskteball in TP, USJ 4

training wif my frens for MSSD

all those memories... BASKETBALL..

now, i am too heavy to move and jump..

sigh... hope dont get any fatter frm now onwards

CNY coming

soon i gonna get my ass bck to subang after one month

cant wait to meet my friends, i m just like living in another world after a month in kampar

totally lost contact like that.. haha, maybe due to my stupid connection

really suffering when there are so many things to do but you cant do it

the mood aint right, so i guess after CNY week,

2 assignment 1 business plan for competition 9 midterms

wont even have a break until 27 march 2010

everything just screw up and my new group member is worried

why his group until now not even have the 1st discussion for the assignment

haha, however, forr this one month i played too hard and spent too much

if i dont turn back now.. i will again lost my path,

so allow me enjoy for this 2 weeks and i will push when everything is over and

the real mood is back then i would back on track

hope so =)

Please

there are time when u really need to shut the fuck up

Anyone can explain on this?

frustrated with my hostel line

constantly disconnect and if connected i unable to surf net

things like diagnose your connection never appear but webpage is not available

however, i could use PPS and flash get to download with high speed but interval the line also disconnected but won't so frustrated compare to unable surf net

i cannot find my articles, my assignment are stuck

omg...... dunno how to complain to office

the technician come sure say no problem but indeed there is big prob

any IT pro here?

Just do the talking

I gonna start involve in societies soon

don't know how far could i go

this going to be a new level for me since i left high school

my friend advised me to build my reputation in the society first

so, i just gonna try my best even if failed then let it be

this moment, high school memories again floating in my mind

so many conflicts, misunderstanding, anger, disappointment

any words will do to describe these past but cant forget the joy we had as well

however, until today, i do hope those who are with me enjoyed the achievement we got

my criticizing skill are back once again

a person making things so grand and exaggerate his stuffs

but for me he is just nothing but a big bullshit king

his planning failed at first place so don't convince me from other aspects about him

his first impression to me is good but later i found out he is nothing

he could say anything about others without realize his own stand

how pathetic is that? Unable to foreseen his own club or society but could keep comment about others.

He still have a long way to go, with an immature thinking hard for things to succeed

furthermore, when you are seeking are being famous and well known by doing these

Sorry, it will fail you

it is just like a basketball coach, if being a coach not because of interest but $

then the players will suffered and learn nothing

money do hold important role for a coach as the travelling expenses and etc

but u need a pure heart or interest for doing this job so $ won't influence you

else, every training section you thinking about the $ and ignore the progress of the players

this actually is the fact, i was once a coach and once influenced by the $

go training section because of $ but ended up i realize it is too wrong

i am so lucky being able to pull out myself from this trap

because i love to see my players grow and improve these are the measurement of our efforts

as there are phrase "money is roots of evil"

So, basically, you do everything for the sake of famous or etc

YOU FAIL

headache

Crapz...... time passed so fast, already week 3 now

with 2 assignment and a business plan due on week 7

midterm 1 at week 6 and week 8

other subject will on week 7 and 9 as well

this sem really killing me

money become a issues whereas new books need to purchase, printer ink, photocopy materials and my only transport need to be maintain.. haha, need write a list for my parents just to let them know i aint spending on food but on those necessities, guess they not gonna believe it because my body already answer their question

Chinese New Year is just around the corner

but the feeling a bit awkward because the atmosphere around you does not make you feel like the events is approaching. until now i only manage to feel once with my friends but that also a week ago.

hope this semester my group mates and i will work hard towards all the coursework

and final exam depends on ourselves d.

hopefully i wont screw up this semester. I do know this semester will be the toughest compare to previous semesters, just gonna try my best, hope you will be with me, and YOU will continue blessing me and finally my friends who keep encourage me to continue my journey in university.

How true can this be?

"The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past;

after all, you cant go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes,failures and heartaches."

How to make it possible to forget the past when the past make you the person today.

the mistakes, failure and heartaches made an impact in life and its had left scars behind

so, how to get rid of it?

cant it be by carrying the past mistakes, failure and heartaches make you a better person?

just read this from a mail, haha....

there are so many past which gave me heartaches and mistakes i wanna get rid of, but how?

could any1 guide me? but do guide me only you have do it yourself.

talking is just not enough

2010

haha, now i m year one semester 3 d..

if manage to pass this semester i gonna have year two semester one tittle

i feel grateful to pass business finance in the previous semester

not to be holy or anything, but thank God for blessing me

i always know that the God listen to His prayers but u need to put efforts

as we know there isn't free lunch in this world

this semester everything will be tough and lots of written assignment need to be done

by march i need to submit a business plan for competition and the other 5 subjects is killing

however, now still haven start to work on it yet.. everything is blank

just get myself a new laptop though lots of criticize for the brand i purchase

just lets hope it will be ok

1st week itself i feel so frustrated d,

bec the distance frm my house to campus become further

so tiring but the happy part is that my new block is awesome

the air conditioner is very comfortable

2nd, my bastard housemates, i have no idea how they use the electricity and water bill

this month i gotta paid up to RM323 for th rental..

my pocket money gone by half d, really need to sound him.

3rd my RM500 bicycle have some prob after fixed more prob

lucky there are frens to help me out and the conclusion is

change to other bicycle shop for repair hope others have a better profession in it