Strange

tomorrow my course mates going start year 2 semester 1
but i will be going sitting at home
hahaha
waiting news from kampar
don't know why they are not efficient
took so long to approve
sigh..
wait and wait..
just like a ship in the sea
with no direction and without light tower
just follow the waves and wind

Quit..

UTAR SETAPAK
-THE END-
i gave up in engineering course already
there are so many doubt and uncertainty
but need a solution for it
so i choose QUIT.
tired of life studying that course
this is the mistakes of my life
i am not really sure what i going to do next
but please hope YOU give me strength to move on
and start achieving things that i never achieved
will power and determination
i am looking for you
I am sure lots people will look down at me
especially customer in my dad's shop
and other friends even relatives
yes, maybe i isn't work hard enough
maybe i took a easier path which is quit
but just go ahead with your thought
i am always being look down by you all
since i was a child
i bear with the annoying customer
which always thought their children will be better
but i am living with my own life
now i just want to have something
a qualification
a certificate
so i move to other course which is marketing
hopefully they accept my application

KAMPAR,UTAR
-A NEW LIFE-
looking forward for it
will it bring a dramatically changes in my life
if i manage to study there
lots things need to be forgone
my interest as a coach as part-time and my players
sigh.. kind hard survive without extra income
meeting new friends, hopefully not the typical Chinese
found it a lot in Setapak which make me not close with them
going to miss my house mates which bring me joy whereas never get in university
if i FAILED here, i think i STOP here
so this really determine my future
can't afford to make another mistakes
miss the engineering course but too bad i can't coupe with it
only despair
so marketing, always have interest there
just need figure what am i going to study
brain brain please assist me this time
i need you for 3 years

Anyways
YOU are my inspiration
YOU giving me strength
YOU giving what i needs
so thank you.

Sorry to my dad, and mom
i disappointing you all as usual
being the most worried son
wasting 15k for a mistakes
hoping one day can make u proud like how my sisters and brother make you
but too bad i am always the failure
habit of study not in me
but trust me
i will once again try have the habit
it takes times

-Wish me luck-
-Guide me success-
-Give me strength-

One more hell to go, Three weeks of heaven awaits me

Monday is my last paper
but don't know why can't really focus
sigh...
this will be a hard paper as well.
just don't understand through reading take me hours to understand
guess what you cant get tutorial answer from notes
stupid notes lecturer give.
sigh.
digital digital..
somebody save me..

3 weeks of holidays
how to spent without $$
haihz..
unique University
break when none of others break
having break alone
fcuk man

Day before 3rd paper

spending whole day studying without knowing anything
really dunno how to take the paper tomorrow
is this THE END
i am still wondering

2nd paper

today paper
what can i conclude?
yesterday aim 25% forgone
75% do
50% aim
today 54% dunno
46% know
score how many out of 46%
unknown
screw everything
things i purposely miss come out
things i focus and do all hiding
done tutorial 134
out 2 and 5

just sick and tired
two more days another day headache math II for engineering
just DIE once and for all

Labor Day

everyone having off today
but for Utar's students there is no off day
everyone doing revision for the next day paper
sigh, having 3 more papers left mean there is 3 more weeks
dynamics, math for engineering II, and digital electronic
tomorrow having dynamic exam
brain kind empty
it is not pure reading, it need analyst the questions
12 chapters; give up 3 chapters
25% of final forgone
75% left
50% aim
so, am i capable of taking the 50%
hopefully yes
now going sleep
wake up at midnight later
continue the process of jamming stuffs into the brain
BRAIN BRAIN...
PLEASE INCREASE YOUR CAPACITY
LET ME BE SMART FOR THE SECOND DAY
haha