intern soon

haha.. gonna start a diff semester this time .. is INTERNSHIP..
kind of missing the uni time.. whereby classes at 8 am are meant to skip..
finish class can bck for a nap..
looking at now... wake up early to work and no nap till release frm work

a brand new life...
now can compare study life better o working life better..
hope would not spend so much...
is all abt money again..
if money earn during intern cant afford my own living expenses then duno how to live in future d..

one thing that disappoint is i dun hav a car to drive..
sis had promised me lend her car to me.. but ended wif 000000
bec her timetable is diff wif my bro in law.. therefore they need 2 car
worst, i stayed in office.. mean.. this 3 month... oli weeekend i can go bck..
weekdays cant find my frens ..
kind of wtf lor.. i start my foundation in PJ.. stayed in PJ.. bck during weekends
then, degree in Setapak.. oso bck during weekends... then KAMPAR( dun mind bck on weekend o nt due to distance).. now... here it goes again... how i hope i do have a car.. n free to go anywhere.. lepak around.. do things i like.. sigh....

Don't know why

Some people tend to ignore their own responsibilities and expect people covering for them..
but... what have those kind heart people who reach out for you received??
did you think about that?? what you said which hurt those who helped you..
you are just being selfish and annoying and don't be surprise you will be all alone at the end of the day..
taking advantage over people is not ethical at all and this already live in you..
in reality, yes you could have survive because the world turns because the existence of people like you.. but, think deeply those friends you hurt?? does it worth?? or you never thought them as your fren at all.. today, i really do shame on people like you.. yea, keep walking with you old attitudes and behavior, i had enough from you and don't show me any faces because you don't deserved any right of doing it.. people will turn their back against you soon, we ain't important to u and u ain't important to us either.. so, walk on.. till one day you realized everything is too late because the ego in you got yourself kill..

i had failed people and disappointed people who handed their trust in me.. and i only can blame myself for that.. these days i really tired.. how good if i could just walk away with.. I STOP NOW,I M TIRED.. THIS SHIT ISNT MEANT FOR ME... i could push to another person to handle.. i m totally screwed in financial, frens, events, assignments, midterms and PEOPLE... just one phrase from you, actually i m not committed, out the door you go.. throwing everything for me to handed it.. do you think your are the only person who is tired?? do you think this is correct? i don't sound you and fuck you because i still take you as frens else i would just say YOU R NOTHING AT ALL.. nt good in manage anything because when you do something you will forgone something.. LMAO if u had achieve anything... my advise and opinion towards you is still the same.. lack of management skill and LAZY.. if u r committed, i doubt that.. because uu do it the very wrong way.. fuck it la.. you wont know and you will never know because your belief.. u had fallen once... and the 2nd time and yet nothing change.. i kind of surprised and speechless about you.. anyway.. just keep push around the responsibilities and you will b the best guy ever la..


FTW....

Final Year

Finally, come into my final year... but 1 year = 3 semesters.. still long huh...
results last semester is rather disappointing as i had dropped below 3 pointer and found that 100% exam tips is useless because students turn out to know everything and spoil the graph.. So, i ended up screw everything.. but still okla.. could still live with it LOL..

Last semester holidays never get to hang out or have short trips due to financial constraints and things turn out to be hard to achieve when you don't have your own transport.. however, manage to be a good boy by helping out in parents shop.. kind of surprise with myself because all these while never happen to wake up on time to help up in shop but this time seem fine... here come the new semester and by 1st week itself everything looks tough for me.. and final year thesis.. this time really need work extra hard already hope there is something to keep me motivate and achieve it la.. can't play much already because you fail this FYP you fail ur degree.. a B really will do.. gotta do this FYP with frens who ain't that good but still hope all of us are committed and give the best that all will do for me.. =)

now is the summer break for frens in oversea, is looking forward for them to come back malaysia but friendship do change because they will get into relationship and frens = nothing..
haha, screw it when talk about friendship.. =D because u n i know how many dependable frens are out there for us.. 5 fingers maybe too much.. 1 or 2 will do

失望

又一次感叹身边的朋友
做起事来就是无始无终
我不要求完美但责任感何在
情愿让别人苦闹也不显点心来为大家解囊
两个字失败
很快又一个学期了,看来在金宝也要两年了
再一整就毕业的, 好期待

古人说,人人为我,我为人人, 放屁啦
一个人活的越久,体会到的人生道理就越来越多
你是否与我一样,笑看人生
感叹这种人的存在
看来我们为人须为自己早想了, 别再无谓地付出
给自己伤害

This night

just now have a chance to chat with my basketball players and even got invited to their school basketball team group on facebook... haha, they still address me as coach and look up for me.. could felt the respect they given to me.. even it is 2 years back.. and i no longer their coach..

they remind me how basketball is part of my life last time and the days i could not live without basketball.. sigh.. still love the game but sadly my physical layout doesnot allow me to have fully enjoy the game.. that why i took up the coaching job to stay involve. however, reality is always turns the other way round, i failed my academic and force to move to another state therefore i give up my current part time and my beloved teams.. slowly, basketball just *****missing *****

hahhal.. really miss those days.. =D will looking up for the job again after graduate..

My gf had start working and i found the time we had together really reduced dramatically.. msg we sent and the call time.. haha.. i would tell myself.. " WELCOME TO THE ANOTHER STAGE"

haha.,, what to do, this is life.. so.. every momemt and talk we had together will be precious...

all the best to u ya.. don't get so stress up with your work bec frens and family always by ur side.. and i do proud of you.. how u grow frm the past till now a mature girl..

miss you =D

Just realized

Normally, people would say photos would captured memories and whenever looking at it then flash back occur in your mind.. however, one drawback of this is u gotta look at the photograph and only it starts to remind you..

Now, i found out song also another tools which captured memory.. lots moment in your life would actually recorded within the rhythm of the song... then, you will start to become emotional.. sad, happy, crazy and meaningful moment in life will just pop up in ur brain.. and musics always accompany you whenever and wherever... like you sat in ur car to certain destination, when you doing revision, when you heard that song at certain places..

Songs will never get outdated for me because each of every song provides me different memory in life and it just keep compiling as long the song exists then my memory shall not fade or erased because not possible of doing it.. guess songs impact is bigger than photograph because can't be disposed

listening to song alone and especially those old song will really give me lots of flash backs..

when got free time, doing this would be fine because you wil flashback what you have done in your whole life at least until today..

=D

Liverpool YNWA....

Don't ask me why i support liverpool because even myself also not very sure about it..

maybe it started because my dad run a coffee shop and carlsberg is the main sponsor of liverpool that time and so i got their free jerseys and from there i begin learn about the club and yea now a die hard fans...

the match results really could affect my emotion dramatically...

if they lost a game, the next day i might eventually become moody because of it and no matter what occasion i have, i will also try to follow up every game..

non stop influencing my dad about liverpool till he know every single liverpool players as well..

haha, few days back was watching the europa league.. really emo because no goal it seem till 84th minutes.. n seeing gerrard at the audience seat.. and guess what.. looking the way and expression of Gerrard celebrate the goal scored by Dirt Kuyt really made my day..

the joyful expression and action =D

really hope after i graduate and before gerrard retired i could get a chance to be at The Kop..

dont wanna miss the opportunity to see him in the field and play...

just hope the dream will come true..

time management fail

Really failed in managing my time and recently become so ineffective and inefficient..

will going to have my 1st midterm later in the morning and another one on monday and next one on thursday.. really back-to-back midterms.. not to forget 4 assignments are untouched...

dunno what happen to me just don't have the mood to do the assignment, just feel like keep delay it but the due date is approaching.. wonder how i could actually handle it.. some of the group members expecting me to do the extra works and etc but somehow i really felt tired of these shits..

finding information, making own sentences and submission.. end of the day i dont think i have learnt anything..

dealt with lots different people from different field till i even ask myself,

izit good to be keep optimistic.. because sometimes those people are too optimistic of themselves

they do not let negative thinking affect them which leads to arrogant..

some even try to take others things and perceived as their own..

for instance a proposal which done by my senior and yet to executed..

some people come by and discuss with me the same ideas though he knew i m in charge of that plan and yet he try to take away from me.. i cant denied we are frens and doing events that benefits students is part of our responsibility.. but do consider about the ethics.. and do respect me.. u wanna do it can, just parked the event under us.. thats what i gonna tell u..

New Format that kills

Oh my God, can't believe that 2 of my subjects'mid term would be in FILL IN THE BLANKS FORM..

1 blank for an answer..

normally when essays we just memorise the point but now is fill in the blank does it mean that i gotta know every single word or just the key words that matters..

new to this format and afraid this will got me kill..

can't be optimistic about this and just a week away from the midterms and assignments due

gotta gear up now to chasing things i missed..

alright, start with photocopying notes tmr 1st..

hahaha

Paid for nothing

Kind of disappointed with the syllabus or can say subject provided by UTAR which is compulsory for every students. Wasted minimum of 4 k in these subjects as follow:

Writing for Science and Technology

English language

English for Communication

English for Engineering

English for Business

English for Management

Until now a degree student still studying with whats a noun, verb, adverb and etc...

wasting my time and money in this and language taught in a one way communication

Do they think by putting all these subjects would actually improve a student english standard?

thats totally bullshit..

researchers found that language must learnt in a fun way and through practising

but looking at the syllabus and way the lecturer taught i could just sigh..

hopeless and useless...

Surprise

Haha, sense of achievement i felt after organized Interaction Day 2011 for marketing society..

the time is the limit, less that 1 week to settle everything.. and my team and i capable of making it a success and it happen without even postpone it.. the only failure of this event is that i actually exceed my budget even with the sponsors. however, i don't mind making bit loses because we do provide the best thing that we can give them =)

a credit to my organizing committees for sacrificing themselves and lots of efforts had poured in..

don't care which department they in charge, we just do everything together..

from some perspective we might not as effective and efficiency but the experience and feeling we gained is totally special and different..

after that event, feedback from participants is really great, there is nothing but a smile looking at those satisfaction from participants and they compliments. Without them my event can be a failure, without my helpers there isn't any great atmosphere because they are really joker and make right feelings to the participants at right time..

Don't know how to express my thanks to my team..

but really appreciate things they done =D

THUMBS UP!!!!!!!!!!

now i gonna focus back on my EXCO, guess gonna push them a bit else i will be disappointing my seniors who pass the club to me with great hopes..

Sickening period

Can't denied that i m seriously emo the whole day..

don't know why i ended up like this..

emo not because of guilt but a behavior of one person..

maybe i m over sensitive or i m always type of person who can't really stand with people i dislike but maybe this time is crossing the limits....

gotta tell you this,

you could influence one person

you could tell the world different story

you could make ones dislike me

you could carry on with your life

you could cheat yourself

end of the day, people will find out and you will still be the loser

i had figure it out, why should i keep bothered by you

i will live with my head held high

i should be the kind one.. and now i will trying to be that kind one

my life would be better... and happier

so just fuck yourself man.. you are too childish

now i start to pity your life and your world.. one day i will fucking laugh at you

the moment you realize you mistakes, everything is too late..

i m so sorry to said that... but thats reality la..

you can't face and handle the world with ur low EQ

but maybe is true la.. you have the $$, u are rich..

but no 1 wealth could pass through 3 generation

because of ur existence, i found i have more sins than ever..

keep cursing and etcs...

hope today onwards i will start change this..

a promise to myself... because i m living better than you

lies cant last forever.. people will seek for the truth and you will be fucked up by then

if one day physical solution is a necessity then i will gonna go for it..

win or lose does not matter... =D with the dignity i lose, with the sorrow you won

haha..

i always admire people have a great team and etc..

but now i realized my team is not bad actually and could work hand to hand happily

we can't be the excel one, but the memory we had when working on the same things..

sweating it out and sharing the achievement.. thats our prizes in life..

hope you all are with me for now and future..

i really do appreciate your help..

just response from people are low.. maybe is their prob but also some is our own problems

God knows.. but i am really disappointed by my course mates.. =D

some even ask me stupid questions and some giving me stupid comments..

but i am fine wth it.. life goes on.. i wont stop because of you guys..

i will move on.. failure or success i still need to get it over..

after expressing my feeling on facebook and enjoy some blackjack,in between with friends.. last and not least going to lake to chill out..

i m fine now, will take on upcoming thing..

I M BACK =D

no more cursing...

New Semester Y2S3

Start this semester with a totally different environment..

haha.. a different environment because i am currently safe from sound pollution and my high blood pressure could be lower because now i gonna have less interaction with one of my housemate...

things goes wrong without anyone realizing it guess it is not my prob..

so, i come out a conclusion, he plan to have a cool style... "Bang Kool"

however, one thing that keep annoy me is gotta c his fucking face everyday..

the emotion whereby no one in the world could beat him

"gou hei" darker than the black( im nt being racist here*description)

sickening when see him, like the whole world owe him ( chinese direct translation)

if this continue, i dont know how to overcome it.. just feel like punching the damn face..

haha.. emo sial... =D

this 1st week of semester is the busiest week i ever got in my life...

with all my time used on classes and most importantly events..

really thankful to my housemates giving me a hand at this time and others who help up as well..

to be able finish a great work in a limited time..

staying in uni till 3 am, feeding mosquito because partly of the block is no light..

rushing the decoration to finish in time..

a brand new eexperience for me and it is a sweet bitter memory..

but satisfaction are there, whenever look at the board... a smile is good enough

the pleasure u felt which cant be describe by words..

it is just awesome.. response from event might be low and bad..

but we do what we can.. that all it need...

positive ways of looking things..

really beh tahan my coursemates..

last time is geek.. now is bastard who just know talk nonsense..

another word... retarded o useless junk..

can't have patience with them anymore...

complain and complain.. commitment is zero...comment and comment

they should learn how to shut up because they dont have the right to talk..

you can talk when you could do things better than me and my teams.. else..

don't even comment, a punch might fly out anytime..

haha, last holiday i almost got fight during basketball with other fellow..

even after his apology i still screw him like shit..

haha, agains a fellow taller and bigger size than me..

guess that time i serious mad d.. =D because logically i will lost the fight

2011

My holidays gonna end soon and there goes a new semester for me..

looking back it almost 2 years since the 1st day i came here..

time really flies and really hope i could graduate in a glance..

haha.. human are always kek sui 1..

when u studying, u feel like working

when u working, u feel like back to studying

haha.. this is human nature... but i do hope graduate fast so parents could retired and stay away from the coffee shop and start having vacation and relax..

come to think of it, they almost 29 years never take flight for vacation d..

because of these 4 children.. haha.. but guess soon will be the time d.

so, hope they will always fine and healthy =)

this is the longest holidays i have in my calender is like almost 3 weeks

haha, cant be blame.. UTAR = Uni Tak Ada Rehat...

surprisingly this holidays there is no outing with frens to anywhere..

all are under budget constraints.. and not to mention some frens beg oso dun wanna come out

with all the excuses in the world, but when others ask them out, then they would be there..

haha, can't denied that girls actually have the power to pull the guys out frm their house..

kind of disappointed with them, anyhow life goes on i can do other thing instead..

this is very much the fact of life.. FRIENDs ... next complicated stuffs after human body

however, i still manage to meet up with my primary frens and some high school frens

but most of the time i will be in the coffee shop lepak with my dad because no kaki to go out..

this 2011 new year i also celebrating it differently because i m actually working as a part timer on that day.. a totally different job scope this time.. stage coordinator.. that day got real close to the MC and performers and the MC even treat me BEERS.. a nice person and nice to work with though i m the one who just assisting him.. haha, A new year countdown event really a brand new stuffs for me.. that day i also impress with myself.. my performance =D haha.. and break record by not having food for 17 hours.. too busy with the preparation and etc.. haha.. crazy night..after the event 2 hours i went to JB for cousin wedding and before attend the wedding at night.. i even tracel to SG just for the Genting casino for 1 hour then come back..

really a combo and after the new year event my leg muscle pain like hell for 2 days..

i also kind of surprise with myself when i so eager to play basketball

1st time i get this feeling after so long.. after high school

the feeling is superb lor.. ahha the first day really kek sui.. my shooting position really gone d.. lol.. hand oso cant follow through.. then only realized how long i never touch basketball..

running around the court is damn tiring with so much fats and dun mention about jumping XD

ahaha.. one day was having marathon.. 4.30 pm to 7.30 pm then 9.30pm to 12 am..

that day my leg really felt the presurre.. at night i could felt the pain.. the old injuries making my leg so pain n weak.. then i decide to rest d.. because the joint like loose d.. dare not continue the extreme game.. but because of the marathon i meet back lots of old basketball frens.. those hi bye fren.. 7-8 years never c them d.. now saw them back.. haha.. still the same faces =D

somehow still felt happy because of this

this semester results also released earlier than expected and surprisingly there is no delay and server down cases.. everything just too smooth.. hard to believe this..

when i clink into that page, i m not focusing on my main paperz but the lan subjects.. and especially Japanese and thank God i pass it.. is kind of unbelieveable.. but really glad to c it because repeating it is a cost and failing it is like so stupid. so.. yea i m happy with it..

as usual, main papers i nver put high expectation and nvr wanted to.. basically there is no aim at all.. bec i aint the A type students.. but chances of being F students oso possible.. so.. average would be best for me.. and yea B n B- just like otehr subjects.. so.. candicacy to continue.. XD

last year there is a venture capitalist came in UTAR and provide the opportunities for students to run a company and evven do a startup... this is really a good opportunity for us as the students but i keep wonder is there such a great thing would happen to me.. and what r the cost of it.. because there is no free lunch in this world, the VC can actually employ few employees for running the company.. why US? i keep thinking and wonder and could not get the ans.. n my dad nt really support me in this.. so guess i shall pull out from it d .. lets c how this gonna ended by otehr studentsl.. wish them all the best..