Memories

this is the second present i received in my life
haha, damn sad right whole life receive few presents only
this toy already 2 year old, from karmen and yee chien.
this things using solar power to move his head..
nod..nod...nod..
2007, i having SPM
so ivan and i happen to be studying together
this thing will be at the middle of our table
when both of us bored
we stare at it..
and laugh..
we just ask some stupid question..
"ivan is stupid"it nod
"kit yuan sohai" it nod
etc....
haha.. both of us are so lame
however, it also can motivate you..
like..
"Am i the smartest"
"Can i do it"
lol.. just depends what type of question you are asking :)
till today, whenever i study at home, this tiny things will be on my table
whenever i stuck i will have a look at it
^^
refresh the mind by thinking back the past
and too bad.. just a while
need back to studies after that

really thankful
to these friends who bought this present for me
and celebrate my birthday with me
that was the 1st and last till today
appreciate it
:)
thank you

A HARD Moment

another day just passed,
guess what..
my brain still empty
two days trying studying dynamics
ended with blur and even more question mark occur in brain
really makes me give up and tired. sitting 3 hours ended with nothing

just now went canteen in UTAR to do revision straight after dinner around 8
settled down and started to read DYNAMIC
getting stress and depress from time to time
and suddenly.. PARENTS call
dad start the conversation first then mom
dad asking about my condition thought i having paper today
mom concern about my cloths enough or not, asked me wash cloths and etc
and..
"are you studying"
"progress fine ma"
"better don't like last semester"
"empty paper and get few grade "F"
dunno why, at this Moment..
why this Moment
when i getting frustrated of studying
they called..
body just numb and can just listen to my heartbeat
feelings of scared
i feel sorry for them for not making them proud
working days and night at shop for their children
and what on earth i am doing
being a student who cannot even passed exam
being a son who does not work hard enough
being a rubbish and wasting tine
i am so useless until don't understand the syllabus
the Moment i giving up but i thinking of YOU
i will, no i must try my best
having few days left
still can make the difference

******FINAL******

at last..
the day has come..
my final exam
it really will be a very very long month for me
nothing can be done now
just hoping everything will be fine
no failed papers again
already SCARED...
wish me ALL THE BEST
=D haha

give me the strength
give me the sign of hope
let the light shine along my path
bless me with wisdom and knowledge
get over this final

Melaka

my best friend had been study in melaka for 2 years
and i had been saying wanted to find him for 2 years but ended up not even been there once
so i decided to find him during my study week.
it is a costly trip however the fun we have is really unforgettable.
there is something i wanna say after that trip
" IVAN THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING ME A BEST WEEKEND"
it just a two day one night trip but actually we stay at melaka just for 23 hours and 30 minutes.
this really a compact trip with so many things stack together.
1)tour in mmu
2)ivan's X house and current
3) his friend's MArtin house
4)collect liquor from someone house
5) find a place to stay
6)best cendol and ordinary asam laksa at jonker streets
7)ringo(pub or bar)
8)pure
9)arena
10)jetty
11)hotel
12)jonker street chicken rice ball n lo han guo)
12)melaka sentral
13)KL
Best places among all--->RINGO and JETTY
there something funny about me and ivan
last movies we watch togther for last year is NEXT(nicholas cage)
Current movies is KNOWING(nicholas cage)
2 years ago at beach in PD
2 years later beach in melaka
haha..
Ringo and jetty really a chil out place
places where you really can relax
i in love with it.
RINGO live music, classic music, old song
JETTY Star, Waves, Wind

Untitled

Recently, i having revision in sunway library. So, i hanging out with sam and his gang since he is fetching me go n back from sunway. I,found out their life really fun. On the road while going to college can meet friends because stuck together in jam, then before every first class of the day, they will gathered and have some fun conversation in foyer then goes a day. It just a life that students have. Then, something cross my mind, where are my friends, friends i used to hang out during high school. ALL gone, I am all alone. Izit because i studying in UTAR that why there is a gap or because i am too annoying.... Answer to this only GOD knows. SIGH..
If my parents have $ for me to study in sunway or any other college in Subang, i wonder how my life turns.
utar--> friend = no friend
everyone seem so busy with study, maybe my badge of students just know study
seldom hangout
not even close
fuck up life man..
facing people who just know about academic
not even bother about the existence of others
everytime i look at myself
i dont know what i become
am i useful or useless
am i smart or stupid
everything i do seem to be failed
let people looking down at you
all your friends forget who you are
U R NOBODY

anyway, KIT YUAN u have to wake up.. Deal with it..
now, back to a boring life...
final exam just around the corner, and that just the begin of another nightmare
A terrify moment in my life..
am i going to pass or am i going to failed
it just four papers
if i messed it up
where the hell i ended up at
i still wonder
should i continue or quit
seriously.. i just a useless guy who keep wasting parents money
2 k for the paper i failed last semester
fuck man..

烦恼

你又不是不知道我的成就是如何
我告诉你我会尽我所能了但为何
你不信任我呢？
我知道你也忙和因我而烦我也不想的
抱歉
我只希望你像以前在我背后默默支持
我就心满意足了

懒散

今天的小考
肯定完蛋了
怪就怪自己
懒惰
唉！
吉涌啊！
何时才会醒觉
大考努力啦
人人看你都厌了
不求上进的废物