Lonely Road

It is two months after Chien left..

my yamcha section is really OVER and OFF for 1 year

the emptiness in Subang..,, sigh

Guess the only one back there is my girlfriend..

Argh.. felt so lonely and no friend can have a heart to heart talk with me anymore..

where is my good listener and Ivan G.. XD

guess everyone else is busy with their life now..

the day we left high school.. all took different path..

and Yea.. no more in contact.. and no topics in common anymore..

Summer could you come back now.. i would like to meet my friends back

though they r just a normal friends but at least can have fun together..

Damn.. i m rotting in Kampar..

and my frens who had wif me for one year and two semester got terminated and left the uni..

so, my academic world left one person and he is one semester behind me..

my graduation would not be as good as others.. but life goes on..

just make it fast and in time so my parents could really retired..

now i really miss home, the two old folks..

hope they are fine... haha, all my siblings are out station..

so, next week i going backk gonna see both of u soon

=) i m not the best child and i come back gives lots trouble to u

but i still wanna back home hahah..

wonder when will this happen

Sigh,just saw somebody comment " that Bastard" again with no regret over what he had done, this i refer back to the one who fight with my another fren.. from the comment i see not a sense of regret and even guilt in him.. dammit.. it has been so long since the 1st time i know him i really hope something happen to him and he could learn before everything is too late for a changes..

to this point, some might think that again i am judging people and i might not have the right to talk about people but just %^&* it..

One who never know what is happening around him

One who always thought he is right

One who will never listen to people

One whose words louder than action

One who will never learnt

One who don't have guilt or sorrow with what he had done

THIS IS DAMN PATHETIC

mark my words, one day and it will really come and at that point

u will regret for everything you had done.. and u will still blame on others

forever you will stand at the same point in life without moving forward

so it is up you... and this really SERVED YOU :D

erm, next, today i realized lots people are really take things for granted

especially university students, i might be one of them la.. =)

just keep blaming parents for forcing you study things you don't like

i know this is chinese culture and tradition whereby they restrict you doing things you like

i know it is ur interest and you feel that you could do it and make it

but somehow in reality, things u interested u might not be succeed on it as well

because this is the fact and I HAD FALL ONCE by assuming I CAN MAKE IT..

but things really don't turn out as we want..

now you just keep blaming parents and have you ever look at yourself

what problems and mistakes you done?

Did you really study well and well prepare for each final?

Did you really try your best?

Did you do revision every night and even consult tutors on it?

Did you take it seriously?

All i know is not enough efforts, lack of concentration, hard work and keep going back hometown even during final and etc are the problems,

i see no reasons for you to fail just that u had failed yourself and you are responsible for it.

But you don't see things that way.. you will just point finger at others..

You should feel glad with what you have because you don;t go through process others went..

if u taken others path and born in a different environment guess you are a drop out student long time ago..

appreciate things and focus now.. after graduate only think of your dream..

now is not the time yet..

Inappropriate

just one month and many things happen..

1st is a totally unexpected stuffs happen whereby my house mates and my fren got into fist fight in ipoh.. this is bullshit man.. fight in public, no 1 was drunk and we are having snowflake in 100 yen.

both of them just cant hold themselves and BANG... fight..

both party also got wrong but this happen is because of one's sickening attitude.. guess if i was in that situation i also will punch him hard and nice.. we are being too patient and compromise with this fellow.. i really dont know what to say.. but this fellow is the one making my life uneasy and making me angry all the time..

now i am handling a club, so this guy would say everything in the world and yet nothing you can get from him.. mean he will just do the talking and no action.. just bullshit and even tell otehr clubs about my problems.. showing sign of disrespect... handle tasks to him will give a answer very hard and dont know how to do.. had work together with him once and guess i will say NO MORE.. so, no matter what happen, i will handle all by my own to avoid unnecessary stuffs and since he is selfish dont think he will enrolled himself in anything.. so, just screw yourself.. i can't be bother.. and keep giving me negative response, cannot la.. cannot la.. they wont do.. fuck la.. i m trying be optimistic and u trying to pull me down.. ask u do.. u say cant then duo duo lan ye..

dickhead

next, 100% disappointed with my board of committees whereby they do not want to sacrifice anything.. ask them do this and that.. their face gave me answer.. if u were unwilling to sacrifice, out the door and go.. dont waste my time and the position i could give to other people... sickening and need me to do this and that... when u guys gonna change and be more motivated to do stuffs on ur own rather than i keep pushing it.. really hope this day will come..

exam is just 3 weeks away, guess i really screw up my midterms and assignment.. every semester assignment really give me headache and making me dulan.. this semester, yea a galz.. in fact a bitch and a bastard same group with me.. doing assignment using copy and paste, ask them change and change.. telling me is facts can't change.. ask them elaborate and independent thoughts they give me same thing again.. dunno i m speaking tamil or alien language to them until they do not know what i want... i ended up give up that assignment really sickenning when looks at their work.. no quality at all.. sigh...