should i say FML???

oh my god, i m totally screwed up..

for one week i barely can focus on my revision

exam is just two days away

n yet.. my brain still empty..

today.. cant even stdy for 1 hour..

don't knw why..

thx to the weather make me sleep whole day

thx to lecturersfor noit gving tips therefore no motivation

thx to facebook, even though ntg to do, i still look at u.

thx to myself for gving myself longest break of all time

thx to music accompany all day long

soon will study.. soon.. don't ask me how soon.. just soon..

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

rather write blog than study.. how great man..

hate study for past,now n ever!!!!!!!!!

If..

If you are going to come back..

and we happen to meet again

hope this time we can really put things behind us

and have a good conversation rather than picking on each other

it is 6 years from now and yet the issues are still fresh in mind & hearts

then the friendship will just got worse and worst in future

If really could not let it go or put it down

then it is up to you, i will apologize for the mistakes i done

i m childish over it and immature but if i given a chance again

guess i wont repeat the mistakes or actions but.. it is too late..

so, everything is up to you..

sometimes i do disagree with your point of view because it is very subjective

and no one is perfect so guess that our personality are damn different

however, i would like to keep this friendship as it had d lasted for 14 years

so.. just pray things go smooth and all the best to u n me..

Looking forward for THE DAY.. if happen

Special day off

kind of happy because manage to go back hometown than usual

so many special occasion, haha, the feeling is great

though there isn't any frens there but thats the place i born

driving around there FEEL damn HOME =)

today, dad fetch my sis bck to hometown and on the way pick me up

mom was complaining that it is troublesome to pick me up and of course

about exam also.. however, dad insists to take me along

wahhaa, so i can go back...

sis n dad go for dentist to pull out their tooth, sis wisdom tooth gt 4 roots

haha, lucky the root never break half insd else she will be crying over it

while they inside the surgery room i took car keys and drive around

1st place is to buy GUANG PIN .. some local produced food for my housemates

2nd drove to LUMUT and pray in the same temple i went for the past 20 years

3rd went to McD looking for GCB, ended up saw the sticker*temporarily unavailable* Dammit, then decided to buy porridge for dad and sis, since they unable to bite later after surgery XD

receipt thrown away because if dad know the price of it is RM4.40 he will kill me

just knew that my grandmom's bro passed away, so gotta attend the funeral as well

looking at the coffin, i was so afraid.. flashing back the past memory 2004 and 1994

when my grandfathers died. I dare not stay at there too long as my tears will running down

anytime.. sigh.. always wondering why human will get old and die

why this cycle exists in the 1st place, losing our close relatives and created sad atmosphere..

looking at my aging grandmom, just wanted her TO LIVE up to 100 year old and even longer

end of this year is my cousin's wedding, i going bck to Johor Bharu..

HAHA, again, my kindergarten memories and standard 1 memories

oh.. god.. so happy to return that after 11 years.. lots things change

and doubt my standard 1 fren will still recognize me, had lost contact like 4ever

but, this time back Johor i guess i will turn emotional when see bck the old house..

damn, now think of it things happen at 4,5,6,7 year old is like yesterday

can't deny memories is most wonderful thing on earth

it makes life more interesting but maybe it just happen to certain people

some just don't gv a damn about it

but for me, it is everything i got

no matter bitter or sweet, i will try captured as many memories as i can

because you only live once, you don't get a second chance if u missed it

so, take actions and make memories and keep it..

before regret.. =) after final exam, back to subang i will find back photos in johor

and refresh the old memories..

gotta admit i got affected by emotion easily..

just like the 1st time driving past my Pj primary school after 6 years..

can feel the heart pumped damn fast and sadness strike me

just missed the past... the old times..

going back setapak, drove on Genting Klang road and visit the X-hostel..

omg.. the feeling also very special..

there is so much more...

Emo

just less than a week then is my final exam d..

came bck from Kl 1 and half week in advance to prepare

too bad, again things do not turn out to be what i want

failed to do a quality revision whereby no matter hw many times i read the notes

nothing enter my mind. brain just not functioning

maybe still early and still unsettle for study..

however, every time i look at the notes, it make me pissed off

study 101 things and just 4 things come out..

haihz, examination always like that.. useless Shitz

great thing about this semester is i dislike all my lecturers and tutors

it become worst when final they don't even give tips

so gonna read all those shitz and memorize it

it is damn lifeless

all i can do is complain and complain..

ZZZZZzzzzzz

is gonna be a long three weeks for me and hope i could make it

really don't understand, u r a fucking adults now

and what u do is fucking immature.. because of relationship

u r making urself suffered and even admit to hospital

not to mention about academic already like shitz

posting things, talking wif galz just to get sympathy?

these sympathy make u feel better?

come on, think man, weight what is important in life

every semester with same fucking problems

why don't just fuck it and live on

thats the best....

some assholes just don't know how to behave or even act like a human

no sense of understanding and just thinking for your own

you can just dig a hole and sleep inside and DIE

no one will feel sad for you

your existence is just a waste of resources

so, save the earth, GO DIE!

attitude which will never change for entire life

i am really sick of it and felt like punching you in the face DAMn HARD