My life...

really could not recall when i wrote the last posts here..

too many things happen since then

1st got my final finished with no confidence but thx God it turned out fine

but this semester looks a bit different where Japanese language is killing me..

and a quiz is coming up real soon where i really could not find time to do revision and start memorize those shits.. it is a terrified experience.. u r just like back into kindergarten and start learn from the most basic A to Z.. craps man..

haha, this semester is the lonely semester, frens all left to Uk and etc..

others are too busy to hanging out with me..

so, i spend more time with parents and help them out in the shop..

haha.. never thought that i could really rejected going out with frens and help my dad up in shop..

guess now i am mature enough compare to last time... consider a self achievement..

haha, 1st time in kampar i am so busy and don't even have extra time to online till late night or face computer like the past..

2 events held at once with different society.. this is really a test for myself..

time management is really important, till now still consider okey but don't think so for the two coming days.. it is gonna be a 14 days for me to woke up before 8 am and start my routine..

damn.. however, this semester got a free seminar organized by the Utar's soft skills department and attended by every chairman of societies. my first thought would be THIS GONNA BE SUCK, talks and talks, bored and BORED.. so take along my earphone so just in case could sleep at that time.. However, this two ddays seminar is like the most joyful moments i had so far in kampar..

whereby took 1 day for us to get real close and the next day we are like close frens and living in our own fantasy and the world only got us inside.. every moments we passed are full with meaning and simple activities with vital lessons for us to learn.. the feeling is just awesome..

just hope the seminar will go on and the same 22 of us sitting together and do things together..

this could be a dream but is not impossible because a mega event took place then we will gonna get ourselves involve.. waiting the day to come and action would make in happen XD

after the seminar, i turned to a bit down because back to reality.. and so much things for me to worried....

1st my phone bill reached 220 bucks.. Fuck Crying out loud.. LOLz

2nd Halloween game test failed..

3rd Sun burn when carried out car wash and feedback aint that good

4th my birthday turn to be a working day for me by working part time, haihz.. bad memory for me.. but, just gonna deal with it... and maybe can celebrate the following weeks because gt extra holidays.

Most importantly is my GF started to felt lonely because i really dont have time for her..

my timetable is really packed and nap isn't taken place for this two weeks.. dont really know i would survive.. sleep time is just not enough and must wake up because of the word responsibility.. damn.. haha.. but i choose this path so guess i cant complaine about it..

just hope i wontscrew up my academic

should i say FML???

oh my god, i m totally screwed up..

for one week i barely can focus on my revision

exam is just two days away

n yet.. my brain still empty..

today.. cant even stdy for 1 hour..

don't knw why..

thx to the weather make me sleep whole day

thx to lecturersfor noit gving tips therefore no motivation

thx to facebook, even though ntg to do, i still look at u.

thx to myself for gving myself longest break of all time

thx to music accompany all day long

soon will study.. soon.. don't ask me how soon.. just soon..

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

rather write blog than study.. how great man..

hate study for past,now n ever!!!!!!!!!

If..

If you are going to come back..

and we happen to meet again

hope this time we can really put things behind us

and have a good conversation rather than picking on each other

it is 6 years from now and yet the issues are still fresh in mind & hearts

then the friendship will just got worse and worst in future

If really could not let it go or put it down

then it is up to you, i will apologize for the mistakes i done

i m childish over it and immature but if i given a chance again

guess i wont repeat the mistakes or actions but.. it is too late..

so, everything is up to you..

sometimes i do disagree with your point of view because it is very subjective

and no one is perfect so guess that our personality are damn different

however, i would like to keep this friendship as it had d lasted for 14 years

so.. just pray things go smooth and all the best to u n me..

Looking forward for THE DAY.. if happen

Special day off

kind of happy because manage to go back hometown than usual

so many special occasion, haha, the feeling is great

though there isn't any frens there but thats the place i born

driving around there FEEL damn HOME =)

today, dad fetch my sis bck to hometown and on the way pick me up

mom was complaining that it is troublesome to pick me up and of course

about exam also.. however, dad insists to take me along

wahhaa, so i can go back...

sis n dad go for dentist to pull out their tooth, sis wisdom tooth gt 4 roots

haha, lucky the root never break half insd else she will be crying over it

while they inside the surgery room i took car keys and drive around

1st place is to buy GUANG PIN .. some local produced food for my housemates

2nd drove to LUMUT and pray in the same temple i went for the past 20 years

3rd went to McD looking for GCB, ended up saw the sticker*temporarily unavailable* Dammit, then decided to buy porridge for dad and sis, since they unable to bite later after surgery XD

receipt thrown away because if dad know the price of it is RM4.40 he will kill me

just knew that my grandmom's bro passed away, so gotta attend the funeral as well

looking at the coffin, i was so afraid.. flashing back the past memory 2004 and 1994

when my grandfathers died. I dare not stay at there too long as my tears will running down

anytime.. sigh.. always wondering why human will get old and die

why this cycle exists in the 1st place, losing our close relatives and created sad atmosphere..

looking at my aging grandmom, just wanted her TO LIVE up to 100 year old and even longer

end of this year is my cousin's wedding, i going bck to Johor Bharu..

HAHA, again, my kindergarten memories and standard 1 memories

oh.. god.. so happy to return that after 11 years.. lots things change

and doubt my standard 1 fren will still recognize me, had lost contact like 4ever

but, this time back Johor i guess i will turn emotional when see bck the old house..

damn, now think of it things happen at 4,5,6,7 year old is like yesterday

can't deny memories is most wonderful thing on earth

it makes life more interesting but maybe it just happen to certain people

some just don't gv a damn about it

but for me, it is everything i got

no matter bitter or sweet, i will try captured as many memories as i can

because you only live once, you don't get a second chance if u missed it

so, take actions and make memories and keep it..

before regret.. =) after final exam, back to subang i will find back photos in johor

and refresh the old memories..

gotta admit i got affected by emotion easily..

just like the 1st time driving past my Pj primary school after 6 years..

can feel the heart pumped damn fast and sadness strike me

just missed the past... the old times..

going back setapak, drove on Genting Klang road and visit the X-hostel..

omg.. the feeling also very special..

there is so much more...

Emo

just less than a week then is my final exam d..

came bck from Kl 1 and half week in advance to prepare

too bad, again things do not turn out to be what i want

failed to do a quality revision whereby no matter hw many times i read the notes

nothing enter my mind. brain just not functioning

maybe still early and still unsettle for study..

however, every time i look at the notes, it make me pissed off

study 101 things and just 4 things come out..

haihz, examination always like that.. useless Shitz

great thing about this semester is i dislike all my lecturers and tutors

it become worst when final they don't even give tips

so gonna read all those shitz and memorize it

it is damn lifeless

all i can do is complain and complain..

ZZZZZzzzzzz

is gonna be a long three weeks for me and hope i could make it

really don't understand, u r a fucking adults now

and what u do is fucking immature.. because of relationship

u r making urself suffered and even admit to hospital

not to mention about academic already like shitz

posting things, talking wif galz just to get sympathy?

these sympathy make u feel better?

come on, think man, weight what is important in life

every semester with same fucking problems

why don't just fuck it and live on

thats the best....

some assholes just don't know how to behave or even act like a human

no sense of understanding and just thinking for your own

you can just dig a hole and sleep inside and DIE

no one will feel sad for you

your existence is just a waste of resources

so, save the earth, GO DIE!

attitude which will never change for entire life

i am really sick of it and felt like punching you in the face DAMn HARD

Sigh

all my coursework marks just released..

damn, got worst marks compared to previous semester..

lesson of this semester is never trust unknown group members

don't relay on them, it will get yourself killed...

final exam will be pain in the ass, wonder how to get good results..

this two weeks really killed me

doing a video for competition from noon 12 till next morning 7am still can't finish

never been that crazy before in doing task..

haha, was enjoying the process when shooting the video

is a new experience for me and look at my dumb skills in acting

no talents at all =(

still wonder is there any ways to convince my parents to allow me to have a motor license

need it badly in kampar because bicycle cannot really used at night or go to another taman

soon going to have many meetings and without own transport i gonna DIE

always depend on my house mates and friends will just caused them more trouble..

haha, just told my mom my hp gt prob

1st she said, come back subang only see how

when i back, she say no money for me to buy new hp

as all money poured into house renovation

Damn... having hard time typing SMS

wanted a touch screen and Wi-fi hp.. guess will never get it anytime soon

however, i just felt my house is very nice compared to last time

moment i see my house when i just back from kampar

just can put a smile XD at last is done after 3 months

parents are happy over it as we have no money to buy a bigger house

so renovate is the option left for us

now just hope graduate as soon as possible and ask both of them stay home and rest

not need wake so early and work like cow in shops.. 31st august 2010

mean they had opened shop in subang for 14 years not to include those years in Johor

haha, hope when reached 16 years, can put a full stop for them and enjoyed life

this is the things come to my mind every time i step in the shop

don't know why, last week i back and help in shop can see how happy is my parents

they do not show it but i know really well... last time in high school i really never think of it

just mind my own business and ignored them but now i think on their behalf

people do changed i believe.. just hope the few hours really helped them

haha, izit real when you plan something and it meant to failed?

wanted to celebrate a fren birthday in advance ended up failed

damn, tried my best but ended with nothing

guess i am really a bad planner

liverpool u bastard why keep letting me down,

seeing your results and performance keep dropping

come on.. last year already disappointed

this year do something make me proud and happy..

Grrrr......

P&C is killing me

recently got involve in organizing event

that is totally crap, so many things are Private & Confidential

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P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C.P&C. P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C. P&C

P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C.P&C. P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C. P&C

P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C.P&C. P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C. P&C

'P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C. P&C.P&C. P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C.P&C. P&C

almost everything discuss is P&C

don't let anyone know unless the proposal is done and approve by DSA

so, basically every meeting he remind us of P&C

afraid of people knowing or stealing ideas

actually society in my university already move on the wrong path whereby they compete between each other and see who will be the greatest

does position and fame that important to you

showing off and etc making you feel better

proud of yourself?

just want to be leader at all costs

ego will pull you down and it is just matters of time

tomorrow will be my first exco meeting and conducted by me..

so, what is P&C and what is not..

i really don't know...

just hope it goes well

there it goes again

Erm, this month and the coming month will be a bad month because again friends are all leaving again to continue their studies.

haha, yesterday one of my junior called me, told me 10 more minutes he is going on plane and say goodbye to me.. can hear his voice that he is going to cry soon =)

next would be my high school friends and primary friends..

argh, could not even think about what will happen to me.

the emptiness in Subang and semester break without them

whenever it cross my mind, the mood just swing and start to be emotional

sigh..

New Chapter BEGIN

great, i just bring my life into the next level whereby i join a society and become the Chairman of Marketing Society. the process can say simple and easy but there are few questions which hard for me to answer. anyway, that is a good experience..

really thankful for the support especially NGAI WEILING, KWAIPEK and their friends..

without them i don't think i can take that post as well..

yea, can slowly feel that burden, wonder if i really can do it and without failing myself and them..

lets see how it turns

not really wanna c myself failed, and yeah, i turn myself into this and needs lots of commitment d..

so BRAIN, could you give me some ideas on my events for the whole year.. XD

now taking the chairman position, things might change slowly and hopefully the past ain't bothering me anymore, and involve in HALLOWEEN NIGHT event as well.. but i juz the commitee members so have to see what can i learn and whether it helps in future or nt =)

next week going to have so many meetings n yamcha section, so i knw the club better and the paperwork thats are necessary for each events which i organized...haha.. juz realized my surrounding are packed wif experienced people and chairman.. i m juz a starter.. so hope i could really beat them and be so much better than them..

as usual, if u r in something, make sure u r the best.. =)

bt that is not applicable for stdy =)

stdy just stdy all u can =)

Satisfied

i seriously can't believe i addicted to Online Game..

Atlantica Online, haha, but maybe it is just short term, but who knows

with everyone in my house crazy over Maple Story and i alone playing AO online

lets see how =)

but Dota still a necessity for me though just a moderate player but who give a damn

just have a feel of basketball back few days,

damn the feeling is awesome

when in high school, i can't live without basketball

but when comes to university, just stop playing and start coaching

and come to Kampar, stop coaching and playing

coaching because Kampar don't have schools need a coach and i ain't popular

playing mainly because of the weight gained

looking back last time pics, i seriously gonna admit how much i gain..

25kg for 4 years craps..

with added weight, running and jumping become a tiring actions for me

that why i stop playing since could not perform as expected(ordinary player)

eating extra calories and fats granted me 6 layers of fats and with no neck =)

haha, just hope from this week onwards, every wednesday night could play basketball

back to study, having two midterms, later and tomorrow

kind hates when you memorize 101 things and just 5 comes out

so, basically, it is just unfair.. but too bad, it the system

just now was studying a text book about operation management

dunno why, it is kind interesting

theories and facts make me wanna know more, but comes to calculation

there goes my nightmare, and this test more on calculation DAMN

but i know i really happy with stuffs i study now..

marketing.. erm, i love it and engineering i hope last time could done better

but LIFE and REALITY is always painful,

can't study engineering is because laziness and bad fundamental

and i can't turn back but just keep move forward

so, hoping for good things happen and it had passed

just could end 2008-2009 with a sigh