Disappointment

just screw two midterms badly..

normally when i screw up something i am not so stressful

but now i am.. why i am turning to be like this.

and finally i realized the effects of CARELESS..

one moment i was laughing how easy was the paper

then walk out and discuss with frens..

Zzzzzzzzz... next thing i know, careless mistakes lead me to the graveyard.

another paper is make to fail me as well

headache and feels like giving up

hate this life man, feel so dumb and slow..

the day after tomorrow will gonna have another test, then next day test again.

wonderful, it just not gonna stop, not even need mention the assignment due just aroundd the corner..

haha... what a life man..

now, chinese new year is OVER>.

get back now... the lost soulzz...

time to awake.. lots work waiting for you to complete..

parents will never understand my feelings,

they just say i am not working hard enough

but sometimes when i really work hard i ended with nothing

staying at library to find a good reference book, ended with nothing

rubbish lecturers and tutors teaching me shitz....

exam answer shitz then i DIE..

i have disappoint you all, but i hoping for an improvement

hoping something could really save me

so, should i keep my hope alive to walk on..

lets see whats gonna happen for tuesday and wednesday

for now trying put a =)

GOING MAD

Argh...

time is running up, yeah, i m still doing nothing about it

disappointing semester, expecting a better lecturers and tutors

but it is just not happening, got the worst among all

seriously academic base lecturers are suck, i prefer those from corporate world

sigh.. brain isn't functioning well...

maybe due to chinese new year and the environment.

wonder how am i gonna perform at tomorrow midterms.

tonight will do the last push and see whats gonna happen.

after this gonna rush for 2 assignment 2 midterms and 1 competition,

hope could done it asap and have some space for me to enjoy before continue other midterms.

think before you say anything

getting sick with what u all say,

when i say i don't know mean i REALLY DON'T KNOW

all these while, i was just trying my best for everything

there are luck and etc with me

i am not as good as you think

or even as smart as others.

just an ordinary person who always dagei and do revision when necessary

that is me, believe it or not is up to you

a break

at last, i try to give myself a break...

can't really handle the stress.. so i went cyber and dota for 4 round..

so lucky to won all, and all thanks to my teammates

today the class in university are terrible, cant wait to get it over,

the weather is totally a disaster, can't stop sweating.

Oh my god.. where is Rain God.. Wind God..

i need YOU.. to make here colder..

really dare not look at the calender, because next week onwards are packed wif class replacement, midterms and assignment due.. when think of those, it really make myself no mood, for now just try focus and handle one after another..

again.. YOU please give me strength

brain.. please start working, no time to be wasted

enjoy later.. MAY is the time but not now..

haha

any1 can help me

now i stuck in academics stuffs..

dunno who can i look out for..

finding lecturer isn't the right way since i really kosong wif that subjects

about assignment... i really need helps

but who are there for me.

sigh.. sigh..

hope within this two days i could get the clue of doing

and..

realized, in order to survive in this world, don't depend on others

they only drag you down or you just wasting your time for them

i had wait once for their help, end of the day, i fall the worst

the past taught me... reality is painful

but is my stupidity which lead me to ask for help

so, just blame myself

let me breathe

once reach kampar

assignments, midterms, competition is killing my brain cells.

stressed.... just know i have two midterms in this saturday,

nxt week 2 midterm and 2 assignment due and 1 competition due

fantastic man.. my life..

dunoe could do well in exam o nt.. brain is empty

and i keep asking myself, am my brain still working

after liquor n beer n wines...

brain.. can u hear me ..

haha

shitz, need start working now..

11 days of break

very fast CNY come to an end..

yea, back to kampar after say goodbye to few frens who leaving Malaysia

one gonna c again during June

another will be end of this year

i am all alone again in kampar

bck together wif uni mates

1st time i accompany my gf get her results, and well done

she manage continue 3rd year, and SHE WILL GRADUATE THIS YEAR

this break kind of short as i unable to meet all my frens but only some of them

will try arange to see them in MAY the nxt time i bck subang

this year most of my fren graduating, yet i am still here studying

dunno this is good or bad, however i will try not to delay anymore

not much time left, now is a toughest semester

the final sem which determine my status

can i manage pass the 1st year of degree since i failed to done it before

=)

kind of sad when leaving subang because will gonna miss all my frens

damn... just hope the time will stop at that moment

yes, everyone have to move on, but i just hope could sty longer

met my X players during their training section,

their MSSD just in two weeks time

i still left a great impact in them

just dunno the good one or bad one

but 1 things they still respect me

hope they gonna do well this year, all the best

they made me miss the coaching life and this morning having breakfast with andrew

OMG, i miss basketball, i miss the old me

the time i playing baskteball in TP, USJ 4

training wif my frens for MSSD

all those memories... BASKETBALL..

now, i am too heavy to move and jump..

sigh... hope dont get any fatter frm now onwards

CNY coming

soon i gonna get my ass bck to subang after one month

cant wait to meet my friends, i m just like living in another world after a month in kampar

totally lost contact like that.. haha, maybe due to my stupid connection

really suffering when there are so many things to do but you cant do it

the mood aint right, so i guess after CNY week,

2 assignment 1 business plan for competition 9 midterms

wont even have a break until 27 march 2010

everything just screw up and my new group member is worried

why his group until now not even have the 1st discussion for the assignment

haha, however, forr this one month i played too hard and spent too much

if i dont turn back now.. i will again lost my path,

so allow me enjoy for this 2 weeks and i will push when everything is over and

the real mood is back then i would back on track

hope so =)

Please

there are time when u really need to shut the fuck up

Anyone can explain on this?

frustrated with my hostel line

constantly disconnect and if connected i unable to surf net

things like diagnose your connection never appear but webpage is not available

however, i could use PPS and flash get to download with high speed but interval the line also disconnected but won't so frustrated compare to unable surf net

i cannot find my articles, my assignment are stuck

omg...... dunno how to complain to office

the technician come sure say no problem but indeed there is big prob

any IT pro here?