Melaka

my best friend had been study in melaka for 2 years
and i had been saying wanted to find him for 2 years but ended up not even been there once
so i decided to find him during my study week.
it is a costly trip however the fun we have is really unforgettable.
there is something i wanna say after that trip
" IVAN THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING ME A BEST WEEKEND"
it just a two day one night trip but actually we stay at melaka just for 23 hours and 30 minutes.
this really a compact trip with so many things stack together.
1)tour in mmu
2)ivan's X house and current
3) his friend's MArtin house
4)collect liquor from someone house
5) find a place to stay
6)best cendol and ordinary asam laksa at jonker streets
7)ringo(pub or bar)
8)pure
9)arena
10)jetty
11)hotel
12)jonker street chicken rice ball n lo han guo)
12)melaka sentral
13)KL
Best places among all--->RINGO and JETTY
there something funny about me and ivan
last movies we watch togther for last year is NEXT(nicholas cage)
Current movies is KNOWING(nicholas cage)
2 years ago at beach in PD
2 years later beach in melaka
haha..
Ringo and jetty really a chil out place
places where you really can relax
i in love with it.
RINGO live music, classic music, old song
JETTY Star, Waves, Wind

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Recently, i having revision in sunway library. So, i hanging out with sam and his gang since he is fetching me go n back from sunway. I,found out their life really fun. On the road while going to college can meet friends because stuck together in jam, then before every first class of the day, they will gathered and have some fun conversation in foyer then goes a day. It just a life that students have. Then, something cross my mind, where are my friends, friends i used to hang out during high school. ALL gone, I am all alone. Izit because i studying in UTAR that why there is a gap or because i am too annoying.... Answer to this only GOD knows. SIGH..
If my parents have $ for me to study in sunway or any other college in Subang, i wonder how my life turns.
utar--> friend = no friend
everyone seem so busy with study, maybe my badge of students just know study
seldom hangout
not even close
fuck up life man..
facing people who just know about academic
not even bother about the existence of others
everytime i look at myself
i dont know what i become
am i useful or useless
am i smart or stupid
everything i do seem to be failed
let people looking down at you
all your friends forget who you are
U R NOBODY

anyway, KIT YUAN u have to wake up.. Deal with it..
now, back to a boring life...
final exam just around the corner, and that just the begin of another nightmare
A terrify moment in my life..
am i going to pass or am i going to failed
it just four papers
if i messed it up
where the hell i ended up at
i still wonder
should i continue or quit
seriously.. i just a useless guy who keep wasting parents money
2 k for the paper i failed last semester
fuck man..

烦恼

你又不是不知道我的成就是如何
我告诉你我会尽我所能了但为何
你不信任我呢？
我知道你也忙和因我而烦我也不想的
抱歉
我只希望你像以前在我背后默默支持
我就心满意足了

懒散

今天的小考
肯定完蛋了
怪就怪自己
懒惰
唉！
吉涌啊！
何时才会醒觉
大考努力啦
人人看你都厌了
不求上进的废物

内疚

我好悲伤
我好内疚
无法抗拒这感觉
每个周末
当我回来
你们脸上的微笑
你们所形容不出的开心
令我内疚
我无法让你们自豪
我是家中最没用的
我的成绩一落千丈
我回来让你们开心
但我的成就却让你们失望
对不起
我没用
真希望在将来的考试
能带给你们快乐安心
如果我办不到
愿你们能饶了我
我知错了

希望

好感激你
想谢谢你
你的劝告
让我走出第一步
我再次在此看到
接着走这路的心
不再埋怨
希望
离我近了
三个星期时间
我拼了
努力

害怕

星期三就是我这学期最重要的日子
在大考占有三十八仙的数学小考
妈的
为何我头脑简单
应付不到这科呢
现在坐立都不安
神啊！救救我！
唉！
埋头苦干地做练习
希望有过一半吧

感叹

真不明白
为何人要如此自私呢
自私能带给你什么呢
何不慷慨点让他人快乐
自己也从中获取开心呢
唉！真是的！

为何人现在不再
懂得珍惜
懂得感恩
懂得感激
懂得报恩
基本的人生道理有那么难吗？
唉！失望！

一分耕耘，一分收获
在现实生活里是不成的
再多的耕耘未必有理想的收获
曾经我已经历过也曾被老师指点了
但现在又再次经历了
好无奈

病魔

无话可说了
此刻只想骂粗话
唉，病了整个月了
咳嗽，咳到肺多要飞了
鼻涕，流到比黄河还长
鼻血，优如红包般鲜红
发烧，烧到鸡蛋都会熟
四喜临门
死期就到
哈哈
完蛋了，大考也将至
脑袋空空
病魔与我同伴
看来红字离我不远了
天使在哪？
快帮我干掉那王八病魔
顶它的肺

放下

今天国中老师与我通电话
问我境况如何，我们也谈了许多话题
从中，她叫我开心点，领悟放下的道理
让自己开心，过的充实点，别再想过去
看来她也了解我这没变的缺点
常记着过去的不开心
何不回想过去的开心
原来我思想也不成熟
已两年了，老师还觉得我还是老样子
埋怨；情绪化；悲观；没自信
怎么能给女朋友安全感呢？
或许曾经的阴影给我的回忆太深了
放下的技巧还是未领悟
对不起让她失望了
她再三吩咐晚上想想她的话

好了，想了
学习放下，做个内与外都开心的家伙
希望能唤醒已沉睡的
自信
快乐
理智
稳重
让看不起我的人改观
爱说我不能，我就尽我所能证明你错了
希望我得到我曾得罪的朋友的宽恕
放下不值的包袱
成为一个如老师说的顶天立地的男子汉
忘掉过去
我的承诺
愿我成功