intern soon

haha.. gonna start a diff semester this time .. is INTERNSHIP..
kind of missing the uni time.. whereby classes at 8 am are meant to skip..
finish class can bck for a nap..
looking at now... wake up early to work and no nap till release frm work

a brand new life...
now can compare study life better o working life better..
hope would not spend so much...
is all abt money again..
if money earn during intern cant afford my own living expenses then duno how to live in future d..

one thing that disappoint is i dun hav a car to drive..
sis had promised me lend her car to me.. but ended wif 000000
bec her timetable is diff wif my bro in law.. therefore they need 2 car
worst, i stayed in office.. mean.. this 3 month... oli weeekend i can go bck..
weekdays cant find my frens ..
kind of wtf lor.. i start my foundation in PJ.. stayed in PJ.. bck during weekends
then, degree in Setapak.. oso bck during weekends... then KAMPAR( dun mind bck on weekend o nt due to distance).. now... here it goes again... how i hope i do have a car.. n free to go anywhere.. lepak around.. do things i like.. sigh....

Don't know why

Some people tend to ignore their own responsibilities and expect people covering for them..
but... what have those kind heart people who reach out for you received??
did you think about that?? what you said which hurt those who helped you..
you are just being selfish and annoying and don't be surprise you will be all alone at the end of the day..
taking advantage over people is not ethical at all and this already live in you..
in reality, yes you could have survive because the world turns because the existence of people like you.. but, think deeply those friends you hurt?? does it worth?? or you never thought them as your fren at all.. today, i really do shame on people like you.. yea, keep walking with you old attitudes and behavior, i had enough from you and don't show me any faces because you don't deserved any right of doing it.. people will turn their back against you soon, we ain't important to u and u ain't important to us either.. so, walk on.. till one day you realized everything is too late because the ego in you got yourself kill..

i had failed people and disappointed people who handed their trust in me.. and i only can blame myself for that.. these days i really tired.. how good if i could just walk away with.. I STOP NOW,I M TIRED.. THIS SHIT ISNT MEANT FOR ME... i could push to another person to handle.. i m totally screwed in financial, frens, events, assignments, midterms and PEOPLE... just one phrase from you, actually i m not committed, out the door you go.. throwing everything for me to handed it.. do you think your are the only person who is tired?? do you think this is correct? i don't sound you and fuck you because i still take you as frens else i would just say YOU R NOTHING AT ALL.. nt good in manage anything because when you do something you will forgone something.. LMAO if u had achieve anything... my advise and opinion towards you is still the same.. lack of management skill and LAZY.. if u r committed, i doubt that.. because uu do it the very wrong way.. fuck it la.. you wont know and you will never know because your belief.. u had fallen once... and the 2nd time and yet nothing change.. i kind of surprised and speechless about you.. anyway.. just keep push around the responsibilities and you will b the best guy ever la..


FTW....

Final Year

Finally, come into my final year... but 1 year = 3 semesters.. still long huh...
results last semester is rather disappointing as i had dropped below 3 pointer and found that 100% exam tips is useless because students turn out to know everything and spoil the graph.. So, i ended up screw everything.. but still okla.. could still live with it LOL..

Last semester holidays never get to hang out or have short trips due to financial constraints and things turn out to be hard to achieve when you don't have your own transport.. however, manage to be a good boy by helping out in parents shop.. kind of surprise with myself because all these while never happen to wake up on time to help up in shop but this time seem fine... here come the new semester and by 1st week itself everything looks tough for me.. and final year thesis.. this time really need work extra hard already hope there is something to keep me motivate and achieve it la.. can't play much already because you fail this FYP you fail ur degree.. a B really will do.. gotta do this FYP with frens who ain't that good but still hope all of us are committed and give the best that all will do for me.. =)

now is the summer break for frens in oversea, is looking forward for them to come back malaysia but friendship do change because they will get into relationship and frens = nothing..
haha, screw it when talk about friendship.. =D because u n i know how many dependable frens are out there for us.. 5 fingers maybe too much.. 1 or 2 will do

失望

又一次感叹身边的朋友
做起事来就是无始无终
我不要求完美但责任感何在
情愿让别人苦闹也不显点心来为大家解囊
两个字失败
很快又一个学期了,看来在金宝也要两年了
再一整就毕业的, 好期待

古人说,人人为我,我为人人, 放屁啦
一个人活的越久,体会到的人生道理就越来越多
你是否与我一样,笑看人生
感叹这种人的存在
看来我们为人须为自己早想了, 别再无谓地付出
给自己伤害

This night

just now have a chance to chat with my basketball players and even got invited to their school basketball team group on facebook... haha, they still address me as coach and look up for me.. could felt the respect they given to me.. even it is 2 years back.. and i no longer their coach..

they remind me how basketball is part of my life last time and the days i could not live without basketball.. sigh.. still love the game but sadly my physical layout doesnot allow me to have fully enjoy the game.. that why i took up the coaching job to stay involve. however, reality is always turns the other way round, i failed my academic and force to move to another state therefore i give up my current part time and my beloved teams.. slowly, basketball just *****missing *****

hahhal.. really miss those days.. =D will looking up for the job again after graduate..

My gf had start working and i found the time we had together really reduced dramatically.. msg we sent and the call time.. haha.. i would tell myself.. " WELCOME TO THE ANOTHER STAGE"

haha.,, what to do, this is life.. so.. every momemt and talk we had together will be precious...

all the best to u ya.. don't get so stress up with your work bec frens and family always by ur side.. and i do proud of you.. how u grow frm the past till now a mature girl..

miss you =D

Just realized

Normally, people would say photos would captured memories and whenever looking at it then flash back occur in your mind.. however, one drawback of this is u gotta look at the photograph and only it starts to remind you..

Now, i found out song also another tools which captured memory.. lots moment in your life would actually recorded within the rhythm of the song... then, you will start to become emotional.. sad, happy, crazy and meaningful moment in life will just pop up in ur brain.. and musics always accompany you whenever and wherever... like you sat in ur car to certain destination, when you doing revision, when you heard that song at certain places..

Songs will never get outdated for me because each of every song provides me different memory in life and it just keep compiling as long the song exists then my memory shall not fade or erased because not possible of doing it.. guess songs impact is bigger than photograph because can't be disposed

listening to song alone and especially those old song will really give me lots of flash backs..

when got free time, doing this would be fine because you wil flashback what you have done in your whole life at least until today..

=D

Liverpool YNWA....

Don't ask me why i support liverpool because even myself also not very sure about it..

maybe it started because my dad run a coffee shop and carlsberg is the main sponsor of liverpool that time and so i got their free jerseys and from there i begin learn about the club and yea now a die hard fans...

the match results really could affect my emotion dramatically...

if they lost a game, the next day i might eventually become moody because of it and no matter what occasion i have, i will also try to follow up every game..

non stop influencing my dad about liverpool till he know every single liverpool players as well..

haha, few days back was watching the europa league.. really emo because no goal it seem till 84th minutes.. n seeing gerrard at the audience seat.. and guess what.. looking the way and expression of Gerrard celebrate the goal scored by Dirt Kuyt really made my day..

the joyful expression and action =D

really hope after i graduate and before gerrard retired i could get a chance to be at The Kop..

dont wanna miss the opportunity to see him in the field and play...

just hope the dream will come true..

time management fail

Really failed in managing my time and recently become so ineffective and inefficient..

will going to have my 1st midterm later in the morning and another one on monday and next one on thursday.. really back-to-back midterms.. not to forget 4 assignments are untouched...

dunno what happen to me just don't have the mood to do the assignment, just feel like keep delay it but the due date is approaching.. wonder how i could actually handle it.. some of the group members expecting me to do the extra works and etc but somehow i really felt tired of these shits..

finding information, making own sentences and submission.. end of the day i dont think i have learnt anything..

dealt with lots different people from different field till i even ask myself,

izit good to be keep optimistic.. because sometimes those people are too optimistic of themselves

they do not let negative thinking affect them which leads to arrogant..

some even try to take others things and perceived as their own..

for instance a proposal which done by my senior and yet to executed..

some people come by and discuss with me the same ideas though he knew i m in charge of that plan and yet he try to take away from me.. i cant denied we are frens and doing events that benefits students is part of our responsibility.. but do consider about the ethics.. and do respect me.. u wanna do it can, just parked the event under us.. thats what i gonna tell u..

New Format that kills

Oh my God, can't believe that 2 of my subjects'mid term would be in FILL IN THE BLANKS FORM..

1 blank for an answer..

normally when essays we just memorise the point but now is fill in the blank does it mean that i gotta know every single word or just the key words that matters..

new to this format and afraid this will got me kill..

can't be optimistic about this and just a week away from the midterms and assignments due

gotta gear up now to chasing things i missed..

alright, start with photocopying notes tmr 1st..

hahaha

Paid for nothing

Kind of disappointed with the syllabus or can say subject provided by UTAR which is compulsory for every students. Wasted minimum of 4 k in these subjects as follow:

Writing for Science and Technology

English language

English for Communication

English for Engineering

English for Business

English for Management

Until now a degree student still studying with whats a noun, verb, adverb and etc...

wasting my time and money in this and language taught in a one way communication

Do they think by putting all these subjects would actually improve a student english standard?

thats totally bullshit..

researchers found that language must learnt in a fun way and through practising

but looking at the syllabus and way the lecturer taught i could just sigh..

hopeless and useless...